.Sunday, August 16, 2009 ' 8/16/2009 01:45:00 AM
Mummy said you must always see the negative sides of you before criticising or complaining about others. I've thought it through.... I guess I am still the impatient, wilful spoilt brat or worsen. Hmm... Just a thought after realising that what you've given me are empty promises and the change from you. The not calling me "baby" but "eh", the raising your voice at me, the not sending me up to my doorstep without the need for me to tell you so at late hours after we went out, etc. I guess I expected too much again. I told myself multiple times not to expect so much from one self but yet I did. Slight disappointment from you but I guess I can get over it.
The things that you shouldn't do, shouldn't say but should help me through and protect me. I need a mature man to do so. Not a 'boy'friend. I apologize if I've expected too much again.
Slight disappointment that I can't go on a short trip out of town for my 21st Birthday. I guess 21st isn't a huge thing afterall. Anyway, I might not be able to take leave coz it may not be approved. There's something I need to do at work.
My mind is kinda blank now, I don't know whatelse to type. It's like I suddenly realised that my honeymoon period had already past and I am kinda emo because of that. Things are suddenly taken for granted. Sigh...
just being myself.
.Saturday, August 01, 2009 ' 8/01/2009 11:15:00 PM
How I wish I am lying on the beach relaxing somewhere out of Singapore right now. With the nice breeze and sunny weather. Get a nice tan, have a nice western breakfast buffet at the hotel's restaurant. Enjoying my day, spending time doing somethings I like. Going to spa in the noon, for a swim before that, etc etc.. It's been awhile since my last trip to Genting. A long weekend is coming up soon.. Really wish to spend my time outta here. Have a short trip to neighbouring country. It'd be great.
I had spent two weekends at home. I don't wanna spend another weekend home anymore. It's just a waste of time. It's my rest day and I'm just staying home doing nothing wasting it away. This isn't the life that I want. Spending future money, not having any savings cos I'm earning too little to even start with my savings, staying home just to kill time, boring........
I guess I am whining again. Always complaining that you're not good enough. In fact, I'm the one who's not good enough. I hope to have a better life with you, but I guess I'm expecting too much again...
I am determined to slim down, so don't ask me for supper or fastfoods. =p I am quitting them. For good. =)
just being myself.
.Sunday, July 26, 2009 ' 7/26/2009 02:00:00 AM
I came to realise that I've been way too lazy to blog. =p Anyway, alot of things happened within the period when I got too lazy to blog. My birthday is just a month away~~ I'll be holding my 21st birthday celebration at Costa Sand Resort @ Pasir Ris on 22nd August 2009. The actual day is on 27 August 2009 but I am having an early celebration cos 27th is a weekday. I've invited some closer friends in my facebook so I hope that they'll be there. =) I'll be on leave on 27th and 28th August coz it's my birthday! and I want a rest. =p No plans on my off day yet coz my bf doesn't seem to have any plans on that day actually. No hint no nothing from him so I am assuming there's nothing much ba.
P.S. I really hope that my cousins and friends won't be sabo'ing me on that day (22-08-2009) cos I have invited my colleagues too. I dont want to look unglam lo~ I admit, 我玩不起。 After the party, I don't mind but not when everyone is around. =p
I want to slim down before my birthday so I am quitting fast food. Okay~ Not exactly quitting but I'll eat fast food only once a month! I saw this slimming thingy in Women's Weekly, iSlim from Japan. Seems good. Went forum to search for it and it actually helps. So I am gonna try this out. Going to buy when I get my pay or ask Baby to buy for me first. Hahaha~ It's selling at Watsons. Baby, I know you read my blog so pls~~ buy it for me k? Hahah~ In case you're afraid that there's side effects, below are pictures taken from the magazine. =)
I hope it'll work on me too~~ =)
Nite~!
just being myself.
.Sunday, June 28, 2009 ' 6/28/2009 03:10:00 AM
Insecurity fills me. I wish I can make myself to believe in your words but it don't sound convincing at all. I hope that time will make me convinced by your words. Please don't make me feel insecure. I hate it. It's only 2 months, baby. I don't wish to say this but if I am feeling this way, I don't think we'll last long. It's only 2 months, somehow or rather you showed the true colours out. You used to be so nice, never complain about anything. But now you're getting impatient, showing your true self who you weren't like that for the 3 months of wooing me.Why guys are all the same? That's the reason why I didn't want to have a boyfriend anymore. At least at that period of time. I don't wish to go thru all the heart pains that I've been thru way too many times.
2 months baby! Our honeymoon period shouldn't be this short! But why you're making feel as if we're together for a few years and kinda used to each other already? We're supposed to be a 'newly loving couple'. I shouldn't feel this way at all. Argh!
I'm so paranoid now. Sigh!
Time will tell... Time will tell........
just being myself.
.Thursday, June 18, 2009 ' 6/18/2009 09:46:00 PM
2 months of together-ness makes me realised alot of things.. Even though it's just a short period of time but we've know each other for about half a year. I love my baby. And I really hope that things won't change. I hope that he can still be like before. Surprise which he gave only once when we just got together. Roses that he gave only once on V'day. No people say that only special occasions will get surprises. Though I don't get even if it's special occasion. =x
I love surprises and roses. Who doesn't?
Baby left for Thailand on 6th, came back on 14th. I went Genting with family on 12th, came back on 14th. Baby came to fetch me and my family home. I really appreciate that alot coz I know he should be very tired already. Thank you Baby! Muacks!
Genting was fun but tiring~~ Too rushy. But at least I get to spend some time with my family. =)
I really hope that our relationship won't turn sour or tasteless when it's only two months old. I know that I had been complaining and whining all these while, but I just hope that he'll know how/what I feel. I don't know why but I have to say things specifically before he can understand what I am trying to say. I need to be very straight forward if not he won't know I like something or I want something. I feel so weird saying all these things out coz normally ppl will know what I want/like when I am 'hinting'. But he just don't get it.
I am trying very hard to control my temper even when I am actually having PMS now.
I don't mind walking abit, but he used to park somewhere nearest to where we are going. Minding little things that I see no diff on. Going out with his friends more than going out with me.
I can't remember the last time we had a proper date without his friends. A nice dinner, chill together, cuddling, drinking starbucks, etc. I know his previous relationship makes him realised that friends are equally important. But I don't want to be hanging out with his friends all the time. I need time alone with him too. I don't want to go out together and suddenly, he called his friends or his friends called him to go somewhere and we'll just join in or they just join us like that. I didn't say or mention anything coz I find that it's alright once or twice. But I should mention first before it happens again.
I hope that he'll get what I mean. I love him, not his friends.
我知道我应该爱屋及乌，可是你不能得寸进尺。我不希望自己变成一个自私的人。可是，爱情原本就是自私的。我希望你能明白我想让你了解我的想法而不是当成我又再发牢骚了。
我希望我能成为一个好女友，所以不要让我一直发脾气。=p
just being myself.
.Sunday, June 07, 2009 ' 6/07/2009 10:01:00 PM
I feel that he'll need me to say one thing to him fucking clearly before he can do that thing. Why he never tries to figure out what I really want. Don't expect too much from you will make me feel better. But I am really not asking alot... A call or a msg is simply too difficult for him to do. It won't be difficult for me so I dont see how hard can it be. Perhaps he forgot about the time. I don't know. What the fuck, aitt! I don't wanna think anymore.I still have to go to work tmr morning and attend my first lesson tmr evening. It'll be a tiring day for me.
Going to bed now.. night all..
just being myself.
.Tuesday, May 26, 2009 ' 5/26/2009 08:48:00 PM
Not exactly a good day at work. Busy as usual, but I did alot of mistakes. Careless mistakes that I should have checked through thoroughly before passing to my RO(Zenn) to check and for my manager (who I don't wish to mention her name coz she makes me sick) to sign. And manager as usual keep on 找碴 for nothing. Damn irritating. Things that I've been doing since I joined, she suddenly say I am not consistent. WTF~~ Argh! She's like having PMS 365days a year. Her mood swing is freaking serious and all of us (my section's colleagues) cannot stand her.I really don't know why I am making mistakes so often. I really need to buck up and be more careful in my work! Sigh~ I just hope that tomorrow won't be another 'mistakes' day for me. I need to stay FOCUS at work!! Focus Corin!!
Supposingly I am not joining my parents and relatives to Genting on 12 June 2009 - 14 June 2009 coz I have class in the evening but Mum called this morning? or afternoon, to say that Von can't take leave so she gotta take the night coach and Ting is joining too. So she asked if I still wanna go. Of course I want to go! I'll be darn bored if I am not going coz Baby will be at Thailand enjoying! =( So! I will be going Genting on 12 June 2009 night after my class which I gotta go off half way coz I will be boarding the coach outside Sun Plaza at 9.30pm. I will need to rush back. Mum will bring my stuff over first so that I no need to bring. Haha. Will be sharing room with Von and Ting and we'll be having so much fun! =)
Runny nose is recovering all thanks to Zenn's miracle runny nose medicine. LOL!! But still feeling quite 辛苦. I have been sleeping early and will be sleeping early tonight too.
I find that I have no one to talk to. Not even Baby. Coz he don't have the time to even sit down and have a talk with me. That's why I am blogging. I know he just change his workplace and gotta wakes up earlier than usual now, so he's tired and wants to go home to rest early. Can't do anything to change it. I'll just have to get used to taking bus home soon as I am already used to him fetching me home after work. I told myself that I can't rely on my bf so much for so so many times already, but I always ended up relying on him too much. Again and again. Sigh... When will I ever change?
just being myself.
.Sunday, May 24, 2009 ' 5/24/2009 12:12:00 AM
What a day~ Supposingly a great weekend but ended not that great afterall. I seriously don't mind to go out with Baby and his friends, they are nice people, but I just thought that he might wanna tell me first before deciding anything. At least I won't be following blindly and turned out to spoil my day instead of enjoying myself.I don't remember when is the last time I truly enjoyed myself with Baby coz he'll somehow makes me angry with some thing. Perhaps that's because my expectation for him is higher than others. That's why I got back such disappointments. I should know best that I shouldn't expect too much from one self coz I won't get back what I've expected. I've been through so much already, how come I am making the same mistake I've made in the past. Sigh..
Went prawning just now which is super boring. Wasted 3 hours there. And he didn't tell me that we were going prawning. Though it's my first time prawning but I don't have the patience to do this kinda thing. Told Baby that pls don't bring me along the next time he is going. I'll be damn bored and sleepy and pissed after that. And we didn't eat dinner till 10plus. Damn~
A hungry woman, is an angry woman. At 9plus, I told him that I am super hungry and giddy. He said that awhile more then go off. I thought that he'll leave straight away instead of 'later'. It totally made me pissed off and I just went back to sit and stare blankly and continued to let my stomach growling and in the end, I had gastric pain. We went off only after he saw my face turned black and his friends noticed. I wondered why he must wait till I am pissed then we can leave the place. Why can't he react immediately when I told him that I am not feeling that well already? Sigh.. And what's the point of apologising only after you did something wrong? Neglecting my words.. I seriously hope that he won't be like that again.
There's 7 days a week and both of us gotta work on weekdays.
Even though he'll come and fetch me home after work everyday but he won't be able to do so after this week. That means we'll only get to see each other on weekends. 2 weeks later he'll be going Thailand for 9 days, 6 June 2009 to 14 June 2009. And my class will be starting on 8 June 2009. That means we won't be able to see each other that often anymore. I thought that this weekend and next weekend he'll be accompanying me only but well, he didn't think so much I guess.
It takes 2 hands to clap. I hope that he'll know what to do next if he really wanna spend time with me.
just being myself.
.Wednesday, May 20, 2009 ' 5/20/2009 10:12:00 PM
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Favourite pic of all! Don't we look alike? Haha~
Von's 21st birthday's pictures is up in my FB. =)
Fell sick after that. Argh! Migrain, vomited, giddyness. What's more to come? I am really sick of falling sick so easily. I had been sleeping early but why is my body still so weak? Argh! I thought of forcing myself to at least finish work today and come home and rest early but I couldn't. I felt that my head is gonna like crack into pieces. Vomited twice this morning and that's why I came back home to rest. I feel so guilty for taking MC again even though I am really unwell.
1 month had passed for Baby and I. I feel that everything is going too fast for us. We didn't celebrate or buy each other presents. Even though I thought he will do so. He said that he is saving up to get something I really like/want for my birthday. But to me, what matters most is the Present. My birthday is like 3months away. So long more... I prefer getting a present now than getting what I really like/want later. But he don't get it. And I find it no point saying so much coz he won't get it. Sometimes I just feel that I can't communicate with him well. No point hinting him anything coz he JUST won't get it. Gotta say something straight to the point then he'll know what I am trying to say. Argh! It kinda frustrates me. But well, he is who I chose to be with and I love him. We'll see how things go.
Goodnight everyone.
P.S: If you wanna tag me, email me instead. =) corin_goh@yahoo.com.sg
just being myself.
.Thursday, May 07, 2009 ' 5/07/2009 10:53:00 PM
I don't like the 'me' at this time of the month coz I'll be very easily agitated and feel irritated by every little things. Very easily tired and feeling lethargic. I don't like PMS. It's making me feel so bloated and stuff. My temper will be from bad to worse. I'll tend to think alot. Sigh. Poor baby gotta tolerate all these shit from me. I guess one day, he'll be like every other guy, couldn't tolerate my nonsense and shit and leave me. Well, if he is really that kinda guy, I don't mind losing. All these shit have become a part of me, a part of my life. If you can't tolerate them, so be it. I really wish that you'll be like before. But guys, they are just so predictable. When wooing you, they'll give you whatever you want, but when they got you, it's a totally different thing. See, I'm starting to think alot again. Sigh~
Night~
just being myself.
.Monday, May 04, 2009 ' 5/04/2009 09:47:00 PM
2 kukus who didn't go to Singapore Flyer before finally went there on last Friday. LOL!! Anyway, there's a Beer festival going on and we had free beer each and 2 rounds instead of once for the Flyer. I don't drink beer but well, the price for the tickets are the same as the Basic flight so we decided to take the Beer flight thingy. Actually I didn't want the second round coz it's kinda boring and I was very tired already but Baby insisted. Sigh. To my surprise, the beer is actually nice. Tasted like some gasy drinks with a lil' alcohol. Haha. It's called The Flying Dog, from USA. =)
Before that we went Vivo walk walk and Baby bought me a dress from F21. Hehe~ Supposed to change the size of the ring but there's some issues and had to wait till the next day. Anyway, it's the right size now. =) Went The White Dog for dinner but I had only the Triple Mushrooms soup (which made me feel freaking thirsty after that) and Strawberry Lemonade which is freaking nice~ Hehe~
Taken lotsa photos again~ HAHAHA~~ =p
Will upload the photos tomorrow~ I wanna sleep already. Tomorrow going shopping~~ with Cousin Ting. Hehehe~ =)
Night everyone~
just being myself.
.Saturday, May 02, 2009 ' 5/02/2009 02:18:00 PM
About 3 months or so of dating, multiple times of asking the same question, at last you have me! LOL!!!! I am so thick-skinned. =p
Even though we've dated others at the same time too, but still, we ended up with each other. Seriously, I don't know what's so good about me. Haha. I am sucha spoilt brat but yet you can tolerate all my nonsense. You've accepted me for who I am and not what I am/have. I am really glad that you're there for me when I needed someone badly. I hope that I can make a difference to your life too coz you made mine.
All I want to say is, I love you Vincent Wan Ying Sen. =)
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just being myself.
.Wednesday, April 29, 2009 ' 4/29/2009 10:06:00 PM
2 days MC.... Slacking.... I've been throwing tantrum easily and I can't seem to control it. Sigh...... just being myself.
.Monday, April 27, 2009 ' 4/27/2009 11:48:00 PM
Sudden feel of tiredness within me is unbearable. My eye is hurting again and I am starting to get agitated freaking easily and I got so many things that I want to do but can't afford to coz lack of ka-ching and time! I didn't manage to go to Momo's place to stay over with my cousins and I am quite pissed of with myself. I don't know why I am complaining when I know everyone else needs to work and is tired after work too. I'm just making a nuisance out of myself. I am tired and I just feel like staying home to rest after work everyday and trap myself in my own world again. Don't wish to bother anyone or be bothered by anyone. I feel very xinku. But I don't know what is it that's making me feel this way. Maybe it's my eye that makes me feel so awful, maybe is the stomach upset that caused it, or maybe it's because I am freaking broke and no one can actually 'support' me. I don't know. Sigh..
I don't feel like talking that's why I am blogging. That's the only way for me to 倾诉自己的心情.
I need to re-org my emotions.
just being myself.
.Saturday, April 25, 2009 ' 4/25/2009 10:28:00 AM
There's so many things that had happened for the past one month that I don't know where I should start. People close to me should know what is going on. Happy things, sad occasion..... That I don't wanna think of. I still can't accept the fact that someone so close to me is gone. It's just not acceptable. Somehow, I still think that he's alive. In my heart, always, he is someone who I respect and love as much as my parents. He's the second father of mine. Never fail to suan me. LOL.. Even though sometimes it's annoying but deep down, I know he still meant well. Regretful of not spending more time with him, not going to his house for dinner. Sigh. But it all can't be undone. So.. I moved on, keeping him deep in my heart, always. And cherish alot more the people closest to me.
Guys are just too typical. I don't remember if I have mention this sentence, but it's really true. When he is wooing you, he'll try all means to make you happy, you'll think how thoughtful can someone be, how nice he can treat you, how wonderful he is. But! When he got you as his girlfriend, everything changes. He'll start to complain every little things. It used to be "I'll wait for you, you slowly do your things. It's ok." Then it became, "What took you so long to come down?" It used to be, I can wear whatever I want. Then it became, "Why are you wearing so little?"
See the diff?? Haha. Guys~~ Way too typical.
I used to want my guy to be nice to me only, never think so much about the future. But now, I want a future. I don't wish to be changing bf like changing clothes anymore. It's not gonna do anything good to me.
To my lovely cousins, me having a bf will make them think, "Again? How long will this one last?" Haha. I am serious with every relationship, but perhaps I am not thoughtful enough before stepping into one. That's why I ended with alot.
I'm just typing how I feel right now. Nothing much. Early morning abit emo~ LOL!!
P.S: Perhaps he'll make a difference. But it'll need time to prove........... So, if you can, prove me wrong about the statements I've made above.
just being myself.
.Sunday, March 29, 2009 ' 3/29/2009 09:51:00 PM
Company dinner on Friday 27-03-2009 was good. Great time hanging out with my colleagues. It's actually a department dinner instead of a company dinner la. Haha. Most of the colleagues in the HR department were there. Cheers' HR staff were there too. =) Though I don't know them. Hahaha.. Anyway, we took lotsa photos together using Zenn's and Jaslyn's digi cam. I managed to snap some shots with my hp's cam though. =) 
Partying on Saturday (28-03-2009) at St James Powerhouse (as usual). =p It's really fun but just too crowded. Argh! No place to dance. the people there were like peak hour of CTE. LOL!! More photos coming up when I get from Bryan and Mandy. =)
Think I'm falling sick again... Been sneezing~ Argh!!
Anyway, I'm really tired.. Will blog more tomorrow if I have the time~ =p
Goodnight~
just being myself.
.Tuesday, March 24, 2009 ' 3/24/2009 08:07:00 PM
I feel...... restless. Even if there's no time for me to feel so. Been busy with mostly work and stuff. I used to get sick of something after awhile, for eg. my job. Haha. I've been here for almost 3 months and everything is great. Most of the people there are really nice, especially my team. =D (As most of you know, in each company, department or section, there'll be one or two nasty ones. My department is the same.) Haha.Work is getting busier each day and it's like never ending workload. Perhaps after this 2-3 months, things will be better? I don't know. Though there's no internet access, but I won't feel bored coz I don't have the time to feel bored. Haha.
I seriously can't tolerate people shouting at me with tiny matter. But recently, someone just did it. I don't know why must he do that all the time. It's not the first time already. I'm damn irritated by him but he is still older than me, still someone who I 'need' to respect. Argh! Whatever. He's just a nuisance.
This weekend will be packed. =)
Friday: Company dinner at Swissotel, after that meeting Alvin.
Saturday: Partying at Powerhouse with the girls. Gong Wen is back from China! Welcome back girl! =D She'll be the main lead that night. Haha.
Sunday: Sleeping dead at home. =p
It's too early to say anything or to tell. I hope that I'm not making the wrong choice. We'll see how things go aitt...
Goodnight everyone... Sleeping early tonight..
just being myself.
.Sunday, March 15, 2009 ' 3/15/2009 02:09:00 PM
No updates for a long time. I'm just too lazy... Haha. I'll just update the photos taken. That's all..Last night was the longest hours I've sleep for the past 3 weeks. Feeling tired and lethargic all this while but last night had a really a good sleep. =)
just being myself.
.Tuesday, February 24, 2009 ' 2/24/2009 09:43:00 PM
Saturday was fun and I have a new favourite drink! Vodka dry~ LOL!!! Anyway, Cousin Ting joined us for the first time!! Woohooo~ Hehehe~ She was having so much fun! =p Mandy is so protective. LOL!! She didn't know how to teach her own sis to dance when she can teach everyone else, including me! HAHAHAH~~ Well, anyways, we girls were having lotsa fun though it's really crowded that night and some irritating shiat 'pestering' us. Haha~ Oh, my friend Wenlong was there with his friends. Met him the first time tho.. =p And Bryan was there too! I didn't know and I stoned awhile when I saw him standing in front of me at the locker area~ LOL!!! So blur~ =p
Left at 3plus after Mandy left with her guy. I'll let the pictures do the talking~ Haha~
just being myself.
.Tuesday, February 17, 2009 ' 2/17/2009 08:02:00 PM
This post is supposed to be posted on Tuesday if I'm not wrong.. lol...Chatted with Sue & Mandy last night after I went AMK for praying and we are ONZ on Saturday night to Partayye at St. James Powerhouse~~!!! Hehe~
Sue is getting married soon~ and though I don't know her that well but she is a nice girl friend to hang out with. =) I'm really happy for you babe! =D Congrats!!
When will it be my turn~~? LOL!!! First, I gotta get myself a boyfriend. Hahahaha~ Nah... Not so soon. I kinda enjoy my singlehood but I am patiently waiting for my prince charming to appear~ LOL!!
Anyways, I had a busy weekend from Friday to Sunday. =p
My work is getting busy busy and still busy~ Ok~ I know I had(have) been whining about being busy at work ALOT but it's true! I don't think I'll have the time to 'msn' or surf net if I have the access to it at work. Imagine now I'm already so busy when I haven't learn finish everything that I need to do. Argh~
just being myself.
.Tuesday, February 10, 2009 ' 2/10/2009 08:25:00 PM
I had been sick for the past few days and till now, I have yet to recover. Argh! Coughing and coughing non-stop. Sigh! Monday~ Blue~ Tuesday~ Blue~ No time for the 'Blues' actually. Work had been real busy since last week. Yesterday (Monday) was chaotic! Today at work was chaotic too! Actually wanted to do OT but I having stomach cramp due to monthly problemo~ Sian~
Might be working OT tomorrow. See if I am able to finish my work on time or not. If not I need to stay to finish. I don't like the feeling of not finishing my work and go off.
Argh! Should have tolerate and don't drink coke just now. Now I am coughing like hell~ ARgh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ IRritating!!
just being myself.
.Friday, February 06, 2009 ' 2/06/2009 12:19:00 PM
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just being myself.
.Sunday, February 01, 2009 ' 2/01/2009 10:19:00 PM
Friday night, went out with Mandy and Sue to Marina Square for movie, Love Matters. It's seriously very funny. LOL!! Anyway, we agreed to go club the following day which is Saturday. =) Mandy and Sue suggested to ask Jeffrey (Mandy's bf's friend), to go along with us and ask him to ask his 'Bros' to join in the fun. Coz they said that Jeffrey is a good dancer. LOL!! And it'll be fun with him coming along. Ok~ So.. here it goes... Satuday night, Mandy and I took train down to Powerhouse and met up with the rest. People who were there that night, Mandy, Sue, Sue's bf, Ah Fa, Shuyun, Jaslyn, Atwell, Brown, Jeffrey, Ah Keong and I. It was fun at first. Coz I was somehow 'forced' to go up the platform with Shuyun and Mandy la~ So paiseh~ LOL!! My first time up there. Indeed it's more airy. But scary~ So many people below us. I was wearing mini dress la~ Haha.
After awhile, we came down and went back to the tables where the rest were there. Started dancing and photo taking session started too~ My angles that night are all wrong la~ Sian~~ But I still managed to take some nice ones la. =) Not that bad. LOL!!
Chatted with my friends in msn last night when I reached home and this noon about what my msn nick means.
I've removed the part where I said something that polluted my blog. If anyone wanna know anything, just PM me. =p
Anyway, they left earlier than us (Mandy, Jeffrey, Ah Keong and I). Mandy was kinda high already and James called and then we left after he reached to fetch Mandy and I home. Sigh~ Didn't really enjoy myself. =(
Here's the pics taken last night..
Alright, it's getting late and I am going to bed now.. Goodnight all..
just being myself.
.Thursday, January 29, 2009 ' 1/29/2009 08:19:00 PM
Something wrong with that stupid phone of mine that I can't see SMSes even though there seems to have nothing wrong with the connection/reception.. Whatever you call it! It's freaking laggy and I am freaking irritated by it. Argh! As you can see~ I am pretty moody currently. PMS period~ It's always like that. Freaking hell I am so tired of being the one taking initiative. I am losing my patience. I know things are going quite well for us but I am just being impatient. Argh!! I freaking hate the 'me' now. Sigh!! We just got to know each other like less than a month. And we've agreed not to rush things thru. I shouldn't be losing my patience. I shouldn't I shouldn't I shouldn't~ Sigh....
My work is stressing me out and I feel so frustrated. Sigh.. I need a swim and a tan!
I want to study for my Dip, but I got no money. So I've decided not to study first. Sigh.........
just being myself.
.Wednesday, January 28, 2009 ' 1/28/2009 10:13:00 PM
Boring CNY 2009~~ Been home for 除夕，初一 & 初二, then 初三 went back to work feeling lethargic~ Colleagues and I didn't really work today coz we were basically chit-chatting and taking pics together~ LOL! But the pictures are not with me now. =p
Anyways, 除夕 & 初一, everyone (as in my relatives from my dad's side) all came over my place for reunion dinner and bai bai. Mum cooked alot of food as usual. I didn't help out and felt guilty coz I went out on both nights for movie.
Don't really feel like typing much. So let the pictures talk. And I took alot of pics with my new pyjamas and my big big strawberry!!! LOL!! So cute~ =p
MY BLINGS~
just being myself.
.Friday, January 23, 2009 ' 1/23/2009 09:47:00 PM
Stoning in front of my laptop on Friday Night~ Cool~~~~~just being myself.
.Thursday, January 22, 2009 ' 1/22/2009 09:29:00 PM
Friday - 16 Jan 2009Went to town with Cousin Joel after work for dinner and some shopping. =) Ate at Fish & Co. @ Heeren. =) Got myself some fake lashes. Hehe~ Joel didn't get to buy anything. Haha.. He is TOO fickle-minded!! =p Guys~ In some ways they are more troublesome than girls. =p
Anyway, pictures up! =) At Fish & Co.~
Snap shots~
Actually he knows that I am taking pic of him!! LOL!
After dinner, walk walk at Heeren then to Paragon then to Far East Plaza~ Went Fossil at Heeren and Joel started looking for wallet AGAIN!! Haha. He was looking at this similar wallet that he'd bought previously and I didn't let him buy coz no point buying back something similar~!! Just when he's being fickle-minded whether to buy or not to buy, I dragged him outta the shop and when we were on our way to Paragon, we took a pic outside Heeren. He 'siam' from the cam and it came out like this! And he said this is becoz I don't let him buy that wallet!! LOL! Ok~ He's gonna kill me if he sees this post. HAHAHA~
Here's a nice picture of us! HAha~
After Far East, we went to That CD Shop and after that we had a drink before we went home seperately. =) I'm so gonna get 'that' CD when I have the money. LOL!
Some updated pictures of Alyssa~ =)
Saturday - 10 Jan 09
Cousin Wendy gave birth to Baby Eljasz Ng Huang Yi Yong early in the morning. =) He is so cute~ For more pictures of Baby Eljasz, go to Cousin Wendy's blog to see~~ http://wenwinner.blogspot.com/ =)
Anyway, after visiting Cousin Wendy at Gleneagles, Sis, Cousin Sam, his wife Dominique & I went orchard for some shopping. Hehe.
Sunday - 11 Jan 2009
Slept till noon and woke up, went 747 to eat brunch with Cousin Mandy. Came back, rest awhile. Evening, went Yio Chu Kang for Sakura International Buffet to celebrate third aunt's and uncle's birthday. =) Ting brought her big nerdy specs and we were all playing with it~ LOL!! My aunties are all so cute and fun loving.. LOL!!
Monday - Today~
Busy busy with work and tired from work. That's why I didn't blog. Too lazy to upload those pics taken to photobucket and post here. Haha.
Alright, I'm going off to bed~ =p Night everyone~~~
just being myself.
.Thursday, January 15, 2009 ' 1/15/2009 08:31:00 PM
What does my birthday means? (From Facebook) =)
Based on my birthday: You are sensitive and vulnerable. Tears often run down your cheeks even when the matter is not that bad. This might be the result from being to pessimistic. You might seem cold on the shell, but your inner self is a loving person. Your Love, You will be elegantly dressed, no matter how casually dressed your date may be. You are demanding in love and sometimes to an unacceptable extend.
IT'S SO TRUE~~ LOL!! Scary~~ =p
My greatest STRENGTHS ...
Optimistic, brilliantly sociable and motivated to win the best in life.
Optimistic yes~ Brilliantly sociable and motivated to win the best in life not really~ LOL!!
Your greatest WEAKNESS ...
Unrealistic, stubborn and reluctant to confront problems.
So true~ =p
Jobs you should pursue ...
Politicians and media men.
LoL!! No way~~ =p
Ok, I'm just trying to find a way to release stress~~ ARgh~ Haven't been sleeping well since last week started work~ How~ How~ How~ How to fell asleep instantly at 10pm and heck care whoever called or sms and wakes up damn awake at 6.30am once my phone's alarm clock rings???!!! Haha~ Chim right? Don't think anyone can do it! LOL!!
A kinky sticker yesterday I saw in one of the medical clinics in Yishun. Was there coz I was having a bad gastric and went to see a doctor. That doctor is crap la. Kept talking grandmother stories about he also tend to have gastric la~ Gastric cannot eat this and that la~ LOL!! Funny doctor la~ Haha..
Was buried with papers at work today. Finally finished keying the pile of feedback forms from customers~~~ But actually there's some more~!!! Killing me!!! I seriously got no idea why there's really people that's so bo liao to write email in, call up hotline, or fill up the bloody feedback form~ ARgh~ Then write until so long~ Then I gotta type out everything still gotta correct their english~ LOL!! Darn~
I dozed off a couple of times at work when I was keying data-entry. LOL!! My eyes totally closed up la~ Haha~
TGIF tomorrow~~ Hahaha~~
I didn't edit the photos that I've taken today at work. Can see my pimple scar~ and my giap dao de scar~ =(
Actually wanted to dye my hair tonight but kinda lazy and sleepy~ I guess I'll do it tomorrow or Saturday instead. =)
just being myself.
.Monday, January 12, 2009 ' 1/12/2009 08:18:00 PM
Been really lazy and tired to blog. New job, new environment, new people, new things to learn~~ I'm still kind of a blur in what I am doing now. Haven't learn everything. Sigh~ Tiring~~Actually, I don't know if I want to continue with this job. Coz I am planning to study full-time but I am not sure whether my parents are able to 'support' me. Sigh~ I just feel that I should get at least a Diploma before I start my career. =( I've planned to get study full-time and work part-time so that I can earn some allowance myself.
I don't know how to tell my mum about my decision. The next intake will ends at 27 March 2009. Hmm~~ How? Argh~ Hates it when I got no one to talk to. =(
Photos taken at work~
New D.I.Y. Manicure & pedicure done through the weekend by myself~~ =)
Alright, I'm going to bed sooon~ Goodnight all...
just being myself.
.Monday, January 05, 2009 ' 1/05/2009 09:54:00 PM
First day of work - Attended courseIt's actually more like a intro of the organisation etc. Kinda boring. Ended at about 4plus and it was raining. I forgot to bring umbrella to work~ Argh~~ Bought an umbrella in NTUC Fairprice. Hahaha~
Nearly fell asleep in the class. I forced myself to open my eyes. Haha.
Tomorrow will be reporting to work at Upper Thomson's office. Excited and nervous~ First day of work in the office. Praying hard that nothing will go wrong and I can catch up with my job well!! =) *Fingers crossed* =p
I feel that my love life is in a mess. I want to clear everything up but I really don't have the strength to do so now. I'll just ignore everything about it now. I don't wanna have faith in anyone coz they are just too fake.
When will that 'someone' of mine appears??? Hmmmm.....
just being myself.
.Sunday, January 04, 2009 ' 1/04/2009 02:36:00 PM
I don't need players in my life so please, just leave me alone. I really hope that there's someone out there, who sincerely wanna befriend with me instead of just saying sweet things but no actions taken. I really don't need that anymore. Sigh... Went to party yesterday with my girls. Had a really fun night. Yesterday was the night that I've drank the most, danced like hell, enjoyed myself to the max, being super high. Haha. We took lotsa photos. I'll let the pictures do the saying. =)
And here's my favourite shot of all, with my new friend, Sue (introduced by Mandy=) )
Left at 3plus and went Mac for supper. Our legs are all 酸到不行了~~
Went home after that. Collapsed on my bed at 5.30 in the morning. Woke up at 11plus in the morning coz I can't seem to sleep well. Perhaps it's becoz of him, perhaps is I am starting work tomorrow and still not used to it coz I've rested for 2months. Sigh. I am gonna sleep at 10pm tonight. Tomorrow I am going to attend a course at Queenstown NTUC. So far~~~ Then Tuesday I'll be going to the office at Upper Thomson.
Tomorrow's course starts at 9am, ends at 5.30pm. I don't know what to wear la~ Go attend course no need wear so nice right? Hmmm... Aiya.. Anything la~ Pek chek~~~
Oh.. Anyway, I got my results for my last two modules' exam. Woohoo~~ I PASS!! Haha. Although is just pass but at least better than fail right. =p I'm so happy that I no need to pay to take sub paper. Haha~~ =D
From now on, I shall live my life to the fullest and not naively think that I can actually rely on my bf (if I manage to find one la). You can't rely on anyone except your family. Most guys are just full of craps. =p
Alright, I'm checking how to go there then going to sleep already. =)
Goodnight all~~
just being myself.
.Thursday, January 01, 2009 ' 1/01/2009 12:19:00 PM
Happy New Year to Everyone~ =) First day of Year 2009 and I am staying home! Thinking of whether to go for tanning or not. Hmmm... Haven't eat breakfast.. Sian... I'm starting work on Monday. Will be working at NTUC Fairprice as a HR assistant at the Upper Thomson HQ. =)
Gotta go to Queentown NTUC for course on Monday first, Tuesday will start work at Upper Thomson one. I hope that I can really hang on to this job. Praying hard!! =)
just being myself.
.Sunday, December 28, 2008 ' 12/28/2008 03:22:00 PM
This will be a dreadful entry~ =p23-12-2008
Went Ktv at Woodlands Partyworld with Aaron before he left for holiday. Came back home for dinner after that. We are both cam-whorers~ LOL!! Took lotsa pics~ I enjoyed singing with him coz I just feel like I'm being myself and sing till 走音 I also don't care. LOL!!
24-12-2008
Went out to town for movie and dinner. Had a wonderful night. =)
25-12-2008
Had dinner with my cousins at Citylink's New York New York. I ordered Fish & Chips and it's really awful. My first time eating at NYNY and it isn't as great as I thought it would be. Haha. Anyway, as usual, we took lotsa pics~ Haha. After dinner, Mandy and Ting went off individually to meet up with their friends. Von, Yiling and I went Marina Square for shopping. =) Reached home at about 10plus near to 11pm. It's kinda early so I've decided to curl my hair to kill time. LOL! Love the curls~
26-12-2008
Woke up and went Northpoint for my brunch with my Mum. Then we went to buy some CNY's clothes and bought a pair of running shoes(Like finally!!). =) Bought a pair of Levis jeans. My first pair of levis jeans~ woohoo~ LOL! Like mountain turtle like that. LOL!!!! Bought a tee at Levis too. And shoes from Everlast, a pair of flops. =p Next yr's CNY I'm not gonna wear dress. Will be wearing jeans, denim skirt, tee, maybe heels and shoes. =) Those things that ppl close to me seldom see me wear. Haha.
After that, I came back home, rested awhile and went swimming and tanning with Cousin Tian. Was pretty tired after that. And my curls' gone after washing up. Did my nails for New Year coz my nails for Christmas spoilt~
27-12-2008
Went for my waxing at late noon and came back met up with Dave for dinner at 747 then came back home and went out to Sembawang Shopping Centre with my parents and relatives. Bought a tee and a denim skirt from Esprit. =)
28-12-2008
Stayed home whole day~ Slack~ Nothing much to do~ Edited my pics and finally~ I played with PhotoFunia which is quite 'hot' for awhile already. LOL~ I'm so slow~ =p
just being myself.
.Tuesday, December 23, 2008 ' 12/23/2008 08:25:00 PM
I didn't know that expressing my own feelings on my blog will affect anything. It all started with a misunderstanding. I thought that the matter is not about you. But I guess it somehow is related to you coz he is your bf. I'll be unhappy too if someone close to me dislike my bf so much. If I am the one making everyone so awkward and unhappy, I apologise. I know he is being protective towards you, but I just can't stand the way he talks to your cousin(me). I guess I am too much of a nuisance. And I don't think we can be back to how close we used to be anymore. All I can say is I do love you but I expressed in a wrong way. I don't think I'll ever know how you feel coz I am always the selfish one who only think for myself and never think for others. I don't like to please people and expect people to please me. I am not whining, I am reflecting. I'll still call you 'girl jie' when I see you coz you're always my jie. Once again, I am sorry.
just being myself.
.Monday, December 22, 2008 ' 12/22/2008 06:42:00 PM
I am gonna start whining so if you don't wanna hear/see/read, please close the window of this blog. =pHere we go~
Saturday is really FUN! Though I didn't earn a cent that day but it was fun and I'm really happy. =) Spent my whole day at the Car boot sale with Cousins Von, Ting and Yiling was fulfilling. Coz we seldom have the time to be crowded together. Cousins outing is getting lesser due to everyone's busy schedules (Except for me la~ I'm always so free~ LOL!!). I didn't have so much fun for awhile. =D
Sunday, Von gotta go church and Yiling was giving tuition till 2pm so she met up with Von to go down together. Mandy and Ting went down first in the morning to set up the store first. Mandy's bf (James) drove them down with the stocks. I went there in the afternoon coz I have my own stuff to bring and James' car got no space to put my stuff. Mum persuade Sis to drive me there and she'll take care of Alyssa so Sis and bro-in-law drove me there together with my stuff and Mandy's rack.
I don't wanna go into details about what happened but I was just giving my opinion on we should hang up the bags like we did the day before instead of putting them on the mat on the floor. I suggested to put the table in the middle and Ting agreed so that we can walk in by both sides. After shifting, when I wanted to hang the bags up with strings, James started giving his opinion. He said that we should just put the bags back on the floor. I seriously think that he need not give any opinion. Mandy asked him to stop it and they went behind to talk.
I couldn't find the scissors to cut the strings so I opened up my baggage and took out my box of nail polishes coz my scissors is inside the box.
Once they came back in, she called Von and I seriously got no idea what is going on. I asked James what's wrong and guess what he replied me! "Nothing is wrong until I came in. How will you feel if you're the one who came in the morning and set up everything then suddenly someone came and reorganised everything?" Mandy came back and said that she doesn't want to sell her things already. And she started packing up her stocks. I was so pissed with what James said even though I know I am in the wrong for being so bossy and didn't ask Mandy's opinions. I didn't know what to do for a moment. Then, I feel that I am the one who should go, I told them that since I am the one making them to be unhappy and no mood to stay there, I'll leave.
I have no issues with Mandy, is James that I can't stand. I thought it should be another fun day there with my cousins but it ended up like that.
I've tried my very best to accept the way James is, and like him, but I just don't think that I can accept him. The ways he talks to people, I just can't stand it. Mum told me that I am not the one who's gonna be with him all the time so just get over it and don't take what he said to heart.
I'm sorry but to say that I won't wanna see him again. Even if he comes to my place or I see him somewhere, I won't say Hi.
Anyway, I went for movie last night. Watched Yes Man. It's really funny. Haha.. Lightened my heart.. =)
I'm going to watch IP Man later on at town. =)
just being myself.
.Sunday, December 21, 2008 ' 12/21/2008 12:06:00 AM
THERE'S A CAR BOOT SALE GOING ON AT EAST COAST PARK - PLAYGROUND @ BIG SPLASH & MY COUSINS AND I WILL BE THERE TO SELL OUR STUFF!! BRAND NEW INSTOCKS FROM http://eyeonly.wordpress.com & VERY NEW SECONDHAND GOODIES =) INSTOCKS PRICES FROM EYEONLY IS LESSENED, WAY CHEAPER THAN WHAT YOU CAN GET ON THE WEBBY ITSELF. ONLY ON 21.12.2008!! SO GET DOWN AND JOIN US! WE'RE AT STORE NO. 2 =D
HERE'S SOME PICTURES TAKEN TODAY AT THE SALE! =)
just being myself.
. ' 12/21/2008 12:02:00 AM
D.I.Y. manicure done for Christmas!! =) 
just being myself.
.Thursday, December 18, 2008 ' 12/18/2008 04:17:00 PM
Did my own pedicure for Christmas~ Simple and nice. With lotsa blings. LOL!! Which Cousins von, ting and mandy cannot take it! LOL~~~ But it's nice~ =p Heehee~
Gonna do my manicure later~ =)
just being myself.
. ' 12/18/2008 02:39:00 AM
I am seriously STUPID and SILLY! ARGH~!!! I threw away a bag that's spoilt together with my mp3 inside the small pocket of the bag. OMFG!!! Worst of all, I can't find my hp's earpiece. ARRRRRGGHH!! Fucking irritated by it. Sigh... I love my mp3 so much~ Haix. It's small and cute~ =( A picture of it. But mine is in pink but I can't seem to find the pic on Creative's webby. =(
Sigh~ I want a new mp3 and a new phone~ LOL!!
Recently had my eyes on Samsung Pixon in Red~ And Creative Zen~ Which is at a reasonable price for 4gb~
Went to watch Twilight at Cineleisure with Adrian and I thought we were going clubbing after that. Irritating~ Never tell me change of plans. LOL! I make up and wore a dress and he just wore a polo tee with berms.. Argh~! Haha. That show is nice. =)
Came back Yishun after that. Haha.
Monday I am starting work and I seriously got no idea what to wear to work. Argh~!
I'm feeling kinda vexed. My love life to being a little complicated. Or I should say I am feeling complicated. Ex-boyfriends wanting to patch up. I got no idea what to do. That's why I am feeling vexed. Sigh! ARRRRGH!
just being myself.
.Tuesday, December 16, 2008 ' 12/16/2008 06:15:00 PM
I got a job~ Woohooooo~~ Bro called me this morning and asked me to go for an interview at Standard Chartered - Plaza by the Park. Then I just said ok. Went for the interview and that guy is quite a perv. =p Coz I was looking at him while he was talking to me and it's so obvious that he kept on looking at my tits. LOL!! I never wear revealing. I wore a dress and a tube inside to cover my cleavage. Don't know why he keep looking. LOL!! But heck la~ I got that job. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHA~~~ Lalalalaa~~~
Bro kanna retrenched by his company. His colleague helped me find this job.
Here's some pics taken on last Saturday.
just being myself.
.Sunday, December 14, 2008 ' 12/14/2008 11:20:00 PM
Dad just lectured me again. He came in and asked why I always switch on the air-con when the time is still early and I'm not going to sleep yet. And switching off in the afternoon after I wake up everyday. The electricity has gone up ever since I stopped working. And he is blaming me because of this. He even asked me why I have to go to bed so late and wake up so late. Then I know, here we go again. He's starting to lecture and scold me again. He asked me to set a timer for my air-con to be switched off at 9am coz that's the time Mum wakes up everyday. After that he slammed my door and went outta my room.
That's when I overheard my parents talking loudly. Mum was saying that the electricity bill has gone up not only because of me and that Dad shouldn't blame me alone. Sigh. After what I've heard, I switched on my lappy, locked the door and switched off the light and wanted to sleep. Here's when Dad knocked onto my door and asked me to get out of my room. And here we go again~ 2nd round of scoldings and lecturing started. He is being sarcastic saying that because Mum said that it's not my fault alone for the bills to be increasing, he is lecturing me again. He is like wanting me to blame Mum for making me kanna lectured by him. ARgh~ He is being ridiculously unreasonable. Whenever he's mad at something, he'll be like that.
Lecturing me about not finding jobs, not willing to help out Mum to work, not tidying up my room, coming home late, etc etc. He can basically lecture me everything that he is unhappy about me at one goal. I explained to him that I sent almost 20 of my Resume to companies, to job agencies, but there's just simply no replies to most of them. Only 1 or 2 called back. And what am I supposed to do with it? How am I supposed to deal with it? Sigh. I seriously don't like retail job and that's what Mum is working as. Dad was saying you can never choose to work as what you like to do. Of course I know that. It's not as if I like to work admin job, but that's what I have experience with. That's why I am looking for that kinda job. Argh! It's not as if I am home late everyday! I've been home the whole day for the past few weeks. It's just last weekend and this weekend I went out late. This is when I know he is just trying to find things to lecture me.
I am a grown up already. But he just can't stop being unreasonable. He is not being understanding at all. I know he feels bad and can't sleep well everytime he lectures me, but if he can just stop being unreasonable, we'll feel better. Sigh.
He asked about Jonathan and I. Whether I have this boyfriend or not, it makes no different coz he's always so busy. I wondered why he knows about it and he told me that it's what Cousin Mandy said. Sigh. That's when I told him that we've broken off. And he told me that I could just tell Mum about this thing. I know that I could've tell Mum about it, but I wasn't prepared to tell her anything yet. I was still finding the right time to tell. Sigh~
I am not blaming him or Mum coz I know they're just being concern about me. I am trying my best to do my best. Trying my best to find a job asap. I just hope that Dad could be more understanding at times. Sigh!
just being myself.
.Wednesday, December 10, 2008 ' 12/10/2008 01:35:00 AM
Slept at 3.30am and was having stomachache at 10.30am. Wanted to go back to sleep but Mum asked me to go Chinatown with her and Big aunt. Didn't have enough sleep. I guess that's why I am having a bad headache now. Just ate 2 tablets of panadol and heading to bed now. Night all~just being myself.
.Tuesday, December 09, 2008 ' 12/09/2008 02:23:00 AM
He msned me just now saying that he is sorry for disappointing me and asking for a second chance. Well, I rejected him straight away without second thought. I won't wanna let myself be tied down with someone who doesn't even have the time for me when I needed him to be there. Seriously, forget it mann!!I don't know if I've changed but I am still me. I don't need someone to accompany me for 24hours a day or 7days a week. I just need someone to be there for me when I need him to. I am not asking for much. And don't wanna ask for much anymore.
I want to slim down. Will be cutting down on what I eat, choose what I eat and go tanning more often. =) Lesser meat, lesser carbo. Drink more water~ and lesser soft drinks. =p Maybe go jogging which I think most likely will be once a week only. LOL!! I just hate jogging. =p
Went out to chill at Yishun dam with Brown, Mandy, James and their friends. It has been awhile since I meet up with him. Brown is going reservist for 2weeks and getting things he needs. =)
Dad asked me not to go out till so late coz I am sick. But staying home is dead boring. Argh~
I am trying to find a job! I need a job~ I don't wanna be doing nothing everyday anymore~
just being myself.
.Saturday, December 06, 2008 ' 12/06/2008 11:07:00 PM
I guess he never really love me before. I didn't cry coz I've cried enough. Stopped drinking coz I finally find that there's no point drinking as problems won't be solved. I really don't mind and never mind that he is not earning enough, he doesn't drive. Material-wise I didn't mind anything. But he don't even have the time, the time that we should spend together, the time that we might be able to know each other more, to be more loving. It's not as if I haven't been understanding enough. For the past 1 month, I had tried my very best to be understanding until recent quarrels. I really tried. Every weekend having new excuses, new reasons, that sounded so reasonable just not being able to meet me. I seriously wished that I could trust you, but deep within me, I couldn't. You don't even read my blog anymore. Too busy with your work, too busy with your family, that you've forgotten a girlfriend that you actually have.
I am through with you.
just being myself.
.Friday, December 05, 2008 ' 12/05/2008 05:58:00 PM
I think I am falling sick due to staying at home most of the time for the past 3weeks. Staying at home makes me feel sick. LOL!! I used to be someone who loves staying at home, lazing in my room the whole day and will never get sick of it. But recently, I just feel like getting outta the house. Dressed up nicely and go out with friends, cousins or my BF! I wanna club badly but I don't think it's a good idea for me to go clubbing now coz I am not working and I am broke. Argh~
I am looking for jobs currently. Looking for admin jobs, in town, central or north area. Anyone have lobang? Haha. I've sent lotsa my Resume to many companies but there's not reply at all. I guess it's not really a good time to find a job now due to recession and it's end of the year. No one will leave a company at the end of the year, not after taking bonus. Sigh..
By the way, I am still feeling sick. Was having slight fever just now. Ate two tablets of the new extra strong panadol which is in orange colour. Ew~ I hate to eat medicine. But no choice, I am really unwell and Mum 'force' me to eat. She kept asking me to go see a doctor but I am too lazy to go. LOL! After eating med, I went to sleep at 3pm then woke up at 5.15pm and went to take a shower coz I perspired. Still feeling seh~ seh~
Going my Momo's(big aunt) place for dinner soon.
I wanna watch movie~ I wanna watch Four Christmases, Wild Child, Bolt, Quantum of Solace~~~ Anyone wanna watch with me?? Hahaha~ Sian... So long never watch movie already. If I'm not wrong the last time I watched a movie, I was watching alone at Vivo.
=(
I WANNA GO OUT~~ LOL!! Desperately~ Hahahahhaha~ Ask me out! Ask me out!! Ask me out!!! LOL!! Ok.. I think I am being crazy~ =p
just being myself.
.Thursday, December 04, 2008 ' 12/04/2008 08:41:00 PM
I am down with flu. Feeling damn ill and uncomfortable. I am trying to get some rest but I can't seem to rest well. Alot of things going through my mind and it's in a mess. Argh~I'm exhausted with all the quarrelling I had with Jonathan. He knows that I am ill and I was actually hoping that he'll come over tonight even if I didn't ask or tell him. I guess he'll never do that. Sigh. Do I really have to say everything out to make him realise things that he didn't realise? I made him not to promise me anything because what he promised NEVER come true.
I'm sick of telling him what I want coz he can never do it. I don't know what's wrong with us. I wish that we can be like before. We used to be so happy together. What changes us? I never laugh or smile happily for quite some time.
What can I do to make myself happy again?
just being myself.
.Sunday, November 30, 2008 ' 11/30/2008 09:39:00 PM
I feel so scared and lost now that I don't know what to do. Mandy told me to chill and control my emotions. I am trying to. That's why I told Jonathan that I wanna be alone for awhile. And he was pissed that I told him I wanna be alone for awhile instead of him coming over after his grandma's birthday dinner. We had been quarrelling. I am just sick of no definite answers, nothing confirmed, from him, all the time. I was and am still trying my best to be the most understanding girlfriend, but I don't feel that he is trying. Yea, family is important to him, family is important to me too. I know he only get to see his family on weekends and I sometimes get to see him on weekdays, but I just hope that he can have at least some time for me on weekends.
Damn.. I am not that understanding towards my boyfriend. I am always demanding things from him. But to J, I am always understanding. That he got to work, that he got to accompany his dad to here and there, that he is having family event and not convenient for me to go over.
*Laughs* I feel 'not me'. I haven't been sleeping well, haven't been feeling well, haven't been eating well. I convinced myself so much that I trust him, but I am not. I did something stupid a few days ago. I checked his hp. OMFG!! I don't even trust him. How am I gonna make this relationship work out?
It takes two hands to clap. But I hiding my hand from his. I'm scared. I really am. I don't know what's wrong with me. Haix.....
just being myself.
.Thursday, November 27, 2008 ' 11/27/2008 12:08:00 AM
Well, alot of things happened during the days I didn't blog but I don't really feel like blogging about everything. Jonathan and I didn't get to see each other often. He's either busy with work or staying in camp. I know he did take the initiative to come over my place to accompany me when he book out, but weekends are dreadful without him. It has been awhile since we last have a date. I can't remember when was the last time we went for movie.
We're together for awhile already but he never ask me before whether I wanna go his house to meet his family or not. Sometimes I really don't feel like I am his girlfriend. It makes me feel insecure that actually I don't know him well enough. I wanted to talk to him but he don't seem to have the time for us to talk. I wonder does he really mean it when he said that he loves me and he misses me badly?
I didn't find anyone to talk to coz I don't even know where to start. I am not blaming him for not having enough time for me but just whining. I just need a place to whine. That's all.
I am really sick of hearing him saying that he can meet me today but ended up booking out very late or said that he can book out but will be late and end up he stayed in camp instead. I know he must be tired after working the whole day, but like when I've told him many times, I hope that he can tell me straight to the point whether he can meet me or he cannot meet me. I hate last minute decisions but he is giving me all those last minute crap. Then apologised and said that he'll make it up to me the next day but nothing is done.
I don't need empty promises. I don't need you to make me happy and sad at the same time. I am giving him and myself some time to maybe make things work out better. I don't wanna give up so easily. But I hope he knows that I'll feel insecure. Haix...
Okay! Enough of my relationship prob.
Cousin Von has finally got her car license and she drove Cousin Ting, Tian and I to supper the other day. Cousin Mandy wasn't around so she didn't get to go with us. It always feels good to be with my lovelies. =)
Had my second last paper for the HRM course today and I think it's hopeless. I think I'll have to retake. =( I am gonna buck up for my last paper next Tuesday. OMG!! I've thought that it's on Friday. I'm so gonna study tomorrow.
Mum asked me to continue studying HRM but I don't have the interest in it. Sigh.. I really need to think of what I really wanna study.
Dad's complaining about the electricity bill this month is more than last month. Blaming me for not working, sleeping till late with air-con on till afternoon and using my lappy due to not working. Dad is always complaining when I am not working. Sigh....
just being myself.
.Wednesday, November 05, 2008 ' 11/05/2008 12:28:00 AM
Ok, I've been freaking lazy to blog. =p Anyway, I'm lazy to blog about ALL the things that've happened for the days that I haven't been blogging. =p Went to watch Nights in Rodanthe alone at Vivo last Friday. Abit regretted not asking anyone along coz I don't really have the habit to watch movie alone. LOL!! But it's a very nice movie. Touching storyline, sad ending though, overall a great romance movie.
Baby J came over for dinner on Thurs and my parents and Third aunt and husband were having KTV session at my place. LOL!!
Went Ikea on Sat with Parents, Baby J and Tian. Didn't get to buy a drawer that fits my room for my bags. =(
Oh ya!! The LCD that Mum bought for me has arrived on Friday and I'm seriously excited and overwhelmed. Hehe. =) My room is "under renovation" currently coz Dad is moving some furnitures away and getting drawer for my bags. Sigh, I can never have any comments for my own room. It's always Dad's idea or Mum's idea. Mum wanted to change my bedframe coz she said that it's taking up space but Dad said no need to change. I got no idea mann. I am alright with both. For the drawer part, I want to get a drawer to put beside my bed but I don't know what Dad is thinking about. Sigh~ Aiya, so troublesome... Don't know la~ Let him decide.
Sunday, stayed home with Baby J. He went back to camp at night. Outfield for about 2weeks. Sigh~ I am missing him badly. =(
Heard from Mum that they've decided to go Cameron Highlands & KL from 11 - 14th Nov 2008. I'll be going too. =) It has been 2 years since I last travelled overseas for holidays. Am anticipating. =)
People going - Mum, Dad, Momo, Dou Dou, Third aunt, Mei, Tian & I.
I'm too lazy to post any pics and I haven't been cam-whoring for awhile. Maybe tomorrow I'll post up the pics taken from the past few days. =)
Bed-time~ Night~~
just being myself.
.Monday, October 27, 2008 ' 10/27/2008 09:07:00 PM
Saturday - 25.10.2008Alyssa's Baby Shower at Orchid Country Club - Ruby Suite (12pm - 3pm)
Snapshots
Baby Alyssa
Cousin Von
Me & Sis
Lil Racious
Me & Von
Me & Cousin Mandy
Me and my cousin-in-law, Dominique
Mum's good friends, Auntie Jess and her husband, My mom, and Javier, my childhood friend.
Me and Mum
Me & Javier (Actually he's my first love. Hehehe. Blush~)
Me and Cousin Joel (Botak~~)
Me and Cousin Sam (He is actually unhappy at first coz I didn't take pic with him but taken with other cousins, including his wife, Dominique. LOL!! Abit forced to take pic with him. Hahahahhaha~)
After that went home for awhile, then headed to Gain City Expo Sale~~ Mum bought Bro and I one LCD each coz my room's tv spoiling soon. Vision starting to be blur and stuff. Don't know what's wrong with Bro's though. Anyway, my tv is more than 10 years old. Hahaha~ It's really time to change new one. =p
Headed to Tampines Giant then taken dinner before going home.
Reached home around 8plus. Exhausted!! Legs are totally aching~ This Saturday was a family day for me. =) I'm really happy to spend time with my parents.
26.10.2008 Sunday
Mum called while I was preparing to go out. She asked me to bring some stocks down to Bishan J8 for her. Ate some finger food and went Plaza Sing to meet J. Watched High School Musical 3. LOL!! Not bad la. HAhaha~ =p
27.10.2008 Monday (PH)
Woke up at 12plus noon. Nua on bed awhile. Smsed Mei, wanted to ask her to go eat with me. In the end this SOTONG~ haha, forgot to pass Mum the keys for the pushcart and she's at Centerpoint with Mum coz she gotta go down to pass her the keys. LOL!! She tricked me to go down find her eat but she's eaten already! =( But nevermind, we went shopping after that. LOL!! =p
Actually Mum passed me her card. HEhehehe~ *evil grins*
Ok la.... I didn't spend more than $20. I bought this lacey short tube to wear inside low cut dress for $7 and did this stupid express manicure for $11. Argh~ I'll explain that later.
Wanted to buy Havaianas but didn't see any that I like. Mum asked me to use her card pay for Mei's shopping and asked me to not spend so much. =( NOT FAIR! Hahah~ Ok la, she's not around, I also paiseh to spend her money. =p
Mei wanted to get a pair of new Havaianas but she still thinking. She bought this new dress at one of the shops at Heeren. Very cute! Hahah~ Paid by Mum. Hahaha~
Will be going Vivo with Sis, Baby Alyssa, Mum and Mei tomorrow. Shall take a look at the Newurbanmale shop tomorrow for flops. =) Tomorrow will be the first time Mei sees Alyssa. She didn't get the chance to see her in person till now. =p
Alright, about that stupid manicure. Mei & I went by this hair extension shop named Milly's something... Forgot the behind part. It's located at 3rd floor, Far East Plaza. If I am not wrong, that manicurist is called Wendy. Heard from this customer of theirs. Anyway, first, she did Mei's nails. Still alright, nothing much. Then, she came over to do mine. Coz I have nail polish on my nails and some glitterings which is I know, very difficult to remove. She took some time to remove all. The nail polish remover is damn cooling. I told her nicely that my fingers are numb due to to coolness. Then she told me in a kind of tone that hers are numb too. -.-''' Ok.. Nevermind. After that she didn't remove properly. Still have some stain! Argh~ Then she started shaping my nails. It's TOTALLY CANNOT MAKE IT LO!! I tell you, I can do ALOT better than her lo. And she calls herself a manicurist. Tsk tsk tsk~ She shaped till 歪歪 lo. It's damn obvious that it's not even and she didn't even bother to do anything about it. That's when I speak up and told her that it's not even. Then she started shaping the ones that I told her and didn't bother to check on the rest. Argh! I was pissed and didn't wanna say much. So after that, went down to another shop of theirs to pay coz they doesn't have NETS payment in that shop. OMG! Haix. Waste my time, waste money!! ARGH!!! PISSED!! I'm never ever gonna go back there to do my nails even if it's cheap. Damn!!
Ok.. I feel better expressing myself out like that. Hahaha~
Gotta sleep earlier today. Tomorrow~~ is Vivo day~~ LOL!!
Night everyone~~
Oh ya.. I saw this on Saturday below my blk. LOL!!
Spotted something different on the carpark lot?? HEhehe~
Anyway, here's some photos from Von that's taken in the hospital when Sis just gave birth to Alyssa. =p
Presenting the "Ah Yi-s" =)
Presenting the "Ah Ma" =)
Aite~! Ciao~~
just being myself.
