.Saturday, June 18, 2011 ' 6/18/2011 04:51:00 PM
Suddenly, I miss home so much....
Been missing out alot of outings with family and cousins. How I wish I can be there with them but I've made a choice to stay here in the States with my Hubby. It's a choice I've made in life and I have to live with it. I've went back to Singapore last year May for a month and a half. And Mummy, Daddy, Grandpa, Momo and Cousin Von came over to visit me last year November. And I will be going back to Singapore for 2 months in December. Mummy paid for the air ticket for me to go back. I am blessed with a family that dote on me so much. This US trip makes me feel the love from my family and who actually really care most.
I feel that there's a gap between my cousins and I coz of the different timezone we're in right now. I bet I'll feel the difference when I'm back for good. Guess time really matters.
I'm glad to say that I've changed slightly and see changes in Hubby too. Time really make us grow, mature.
The weather here is turning warm. 21st of June will be the first day of Summer but I can feel the heat now. Lol!
I'll continue to plan our August trip tomorrow with Hubby as we've only finished planning San Francisco. There's still Los Angeles, San Diego, Arizona and Las Vegas to plan. We still have a lot more to plan. Haha. I really can't wait for this trip coz it'll be my birthday trip. =)
Been missing out alot of outings with family and cousins. How I wish I can be there with them but I've made a choice to stay here in the States with my Hubby. It's a choice I've made in life and I have to live with it. I've went back to Singapore last year May for a month and a half. And Mummy, Daddy, Grandpa, Momo and Cousin Von came over to visit me last year November. And I will be going back to Singapore for 2 months in December. Mummy paid for the air ticket for me to go back. I am blessed with a family that dote on me so much. This US trip makes me feel the love from my family and who actually really care most.
I feel that there's a gap between my cousins and I coz of the different timezone we're in right now. I bet I'll feel the difference when I'm back for good. Guess time really matters.
I'm glad to say that I've changed slightly and see changes in Hubby too. Time really make us grow, mature.
The weather here is turning warm. 21st of June will be the first day of Summer but I can feel the heat now. Lol!
I'll continue to plan our August trip tomorrow with Hubby as we've only finished planning San Francisco. There's still Los Angeles, San Diego, Arizona and Las Vegas to plan. We still have a lot more to plan. Haha. I really can't wait for this trip coz it'll be my birthday trip. =)
*Can't wait for December to come too..
just being myself.
.Friday, May 27, 2011 ' 5/27/2011 05:49:00 AM
It's been really a very long time since my last post. I guess I was too lazy to actually start typing anything here.
I've been good here. Met a few really nice friends and enjoyed myself with them and their babies. I gave in all my hearts to the friends I've met here and we talk about anything and everything. I'm really glad that I've met them after I came back here from Singapore in July 2010.
They have been good to me and a couple went back to Singapore for good on 23rd May 2011 recently, Lawrence and Stephanie. They actually taught me alot of things without realising it.
The bunch of friends I met here, I'll definitely be meeting up with them even if we're back in Singapore end of 2012. =)
I'll be going on a roadtrip tomorrow, 27th May 2011 to 30th May 2011. It's a long weekend hence we've decided to go Seattle, Washington, with another couple, Bay & QQ and their baby, Reuben. I hope it'll be a pleasant one though there's some problems.
It's really such a coincidence that my debit card cannot do withdrawal or debit use and Hubby's card is in the midst of recovering due to previous dispute that cause him to cancel his card and apply for a new card. Argh!! Why is all this happening just before the trip?? I really wish to just cancel the trip coz I'm not able to spend alot coz the cash that we had left is not alot.
I guess it's just classic ba. The unlucky me. Haix... I guess that's why people is questioning why it's such a coincidence that such thing happened just right before the trip. The doubtings and untrustworthy...... I don't blame him coz if the situation is happening to me, I'll doubt too. But why does he has to tell someone else who's not even involved in this matter? Sigh... Feel so sad..
No one to help, no one to talk to.. FML~~~~~~~
just being myself.
.Wednesday, September 29, 2010 ' 9/29/2010 04:04:00 PM
Before I went back to Singapore in May this year, Sis and I were close but not as close as we are now. We're 9 years apart from each other and we really didn't spend much time together when we were younger. 9 years is really a gap between us cos we could never really have a heart to heart talk to each other then.After I went back to Singapore in May, I've realised our bond is tighter and we had heart to heart talk. I guess I've grown up and she is able to talk to me stuff that I didn't understand in the past. And I am able to talk to her stuff that I never really had the intention to talk about with her in the past. Haha.
Our sisterhood is really working well even if I am in the States and she's back home. I know she's going through a hard time now and I really wish to be there for her no matter what but I can't. I know that she understands that I'll definitely support her no matter what so even if I am in the States, she can still talk to me via whatsapp, skype or online.
Sis, I want you to know that we're family and no matter where we are, family will never leave you. And that I love you and I am really glad to have you as my big sister. =)
just being myself.
.Tuesday, September 07, 2010 ' 9/07/2010 02:09:00 PM
Everytime when I have something that I couldn't stand him from doing, I tried talking nicely to him. But it just don't work at all even if speaking to him nicely. Hmm.. I feel tired, like dead tired. It made me feel that he doesn't care at all. I am trying my very best to be patient with him. Trying harder to tolerate his egoistic self. I wished I have more patience in me........
just being myself.
.Thursday, July 22, 2010 ' 7/22/2010 06:18:00 AM
I know I promised to blog more often but I was getting real lazy again. Haha! Ok~ Anyways, we spent our weekend at home last week and cuddled on the sofa and watched 泡沫之夏 together. =) A pretty nice Taiwan Drama.
We wanted to go swimming on Sunday but realised it's not open on Sundays. Haha~
This Saturday, we'll be going to Boise for the Boise Music Festival. I really don't know all the artists except for Back Street Boys and Macy Gray. Haha~ So yup, kinda anticipating it now coz I've never been to such event before. =)) It'll be starting at 10am. =D
This week, Baby is working night shift so we didn't really spend time together coz he came back quite late and I was already asleep and when I wake up, he'll still be sleeping. So I had been spending my nights alone. But it's ok, we'll just make up with it on weekend. =D
We bought two photo frames that can put 4 pictures each and it's in black at Walmart two weeks ago and I've finally put the photos into the frames but they seem plain so I'll be zhng'ing my photo frames and we'll hang it up in the living room once it's done. I am very lazy to start zhng'ing them so probably later or tomorrow I'll start with it. =p
For sure it'll be very pretty after it's done! =))
We wanted to go swimming on Sunday but realised it's not open on Sundays. Haha~
This Saturday, we'll be going to Boise for the Boise Music Festival. I really don't know all the artists except for Back Street Boys and Macy Gray. Haha~ So yup, kinda anticipating it now coz I've never been to such event before. =)) It'll be starting at 10am. =D
This week, Baby is working night shift so we didn't really spend time together coz he came back quite late and I was already asleep and when I wake up, he'll still be sleeping. So I had been spending my nights alone. But it's ok, we'll just make up with it on weekend. =D
We bought two photo frames that can put 4 pictures each and it's in black at Walmart two weeks ago and I've finally put the photos into the frames but they seem plain so I'll be zhng'ing my photo frames and we'll hang it up in the living room once it's done. I am very lazy to start zhng'ing them so probably later or tomorrow I'll start with it. =p
For sure it'll be very pretty after it's done! =))
I'll update on the Music Festival next week. =D
just being myself.
.Saturday, July 10, 2010 ' 7/10/2010 03:21:00 AM
Well, time really went by fast!! I've been back for about a week already!! I didn't even realise time can go by so so fast.. HAha!
The first thing on my mind when I got home is, 'OMG! This is called tidied up already??' LOL!! I really doubt so. Anyways, I had been busy tidying up and cleaning up the house for the past few days. It's better now. Still messy, but better. Haha. =p
I realised that I kinda miss the life here when I was back to SG. Haha. Maybe because Hubby is here that's why I don't feel lonely even if he's out for work. =)) In SG, though I have my family with me, but somehow I didn't feel completed.
Back in SG, I've spent quality time with my family and got to celebrate Fathers' Day with my family alone, though Mummy gotta work and wasn't there with us but I had a great time spent with the rest of my family. =) I've missed celebrating this year's Mothers' Day but at least I gotta celebrate Fathers' Day. I know Daddy was super happy that I was there la! LOL!! =p Ok, I am thick-skinned. hahaha~
Even though Daddy is getting more and more naggy as he ages, but I still love him as much as ever! And I know he really cares and dote on me alot. Thinking of him makes me feel like crying again. He really is the best Dad ever! I know that he loves me as much as I love him and when I am away, he misses me more than words could describe. I am really feeling guilty that I can't be there to celebrate his birthdays for this year and the next two years with him. But I will never gonna forget to at least give him a call to wish him a 'Happy Birthday' every year! And also for Fathers' Day. =))
I've been spending almost every single day with Mummy and Sis when I was in SG. Well, not almost, I think it's EVERYDAY! Haha~ At least I see my Sis every single day~ Haha~ Even though Sis and I wasn't that close when I was young, but as I grow older, I guess I become more sensible and Sis can actually talks to me about her stuff and I can be her listener when she didn't want to talk about it with Mummy or whoever. =) I am glad that I can be her listener and I am really glad that she cares to share things with me. I know that Sis dotes on me alot too. =))
Actually we made Mummy angry because we bought an Agnes b bag each when we were really broke already. Haha~ Sis was so suay~ She gotta work with Mummy on that very day Mummy gotta know the price of the bag and got angry. LOL! She smsed me to ask me to go down to Causeway Point to "sai nai" with Mummy to make her 消气. =p So I woke up and went down to cwp to look for them and 'save' my Sis from the silent treatment Mummy was giving her. Well, I had my ways to make Mummy stop being angry and she started scolding me instead of continuing the silent treatment while Sis went to toilet. I know Mummy won't be angry with us for no reason. I know that it wasn't because of that bag. It's because Mummy NEVER like other people, even her sisters, to talk about her children. So well, as expected, it was someone who talked about us and well, in between, I misunderstood some people and hurt them and I am really sorry. =( But, everything is fine now. =) Anyways, after Mummy scolded me, I guessed she felt better and started talking to Sis and me and everything went back to normal. Hehe~ I know Mummy won't be angry for long. And Sis said to me that 只有我对妈咪有办法！LOL!! That's because I am the youngest and I know how to 撒娇 with her~~ =p
Oh ya~ we didn't get to bring Alyssa to the zoo and I didn't get to go spa and facial with Sis. So many places never get to go before I come back. But it's ok, I'll be going back next year January with Hubby!! Hehehe~
Attended Bro's Solemnisation at Bottle Tree Park before I headed home to rest and pack my luggage. =p Sis came over at about 11plus that night and we went to take a nap till about 2 plus in the morning and headed to the airport. Mummy was so strong la, she never take any naps. She just stay up till we were ready to go off. Bro was out with Sis-in-law, Yvette, and his friends for a drink so they didn't send me off but they did give me a call when I was on my way to the airport with Sis, Mummy and Cousin Tian. =) Von, Yiling and Mei gave me a sms each. =) And Leo and Girl Jie met us there at the airport. =)) Thank you so much for making the effort to come down and send me off! I know you love me! LOL!!
Oh ya! I was so forgetful that I actually left my laptop which is obviously seen on my bed!! Argh! I was panicked and well, Bro actually took a cab and came down to the airport and brought it for me. I am really really touched. =)) You're my best Bro and even though you can be really naggy and impatient some times (erm, ok, most of the time, LOL!!), but I still love you!! =))
The first thing on my mind when I got home is, 'OMG! This is called tidied up already??' LOL!! I really doubt so. Anyways, I had been busy tidying up and cleaning up the house for the past few days. It's better now. Still messy, but better. Haha. =p
I realised that I kinda miss the life here when I was back to SG. Haha. Maybe because Hubby is here that's why I don't feel lonely even if he's out for work. =)) In SG, though I have my family with me, but somehow I didn't feel completed.
Back in SG, I've spent quality time with my family and got to celebrate Fathers' Day with my family alone, though Mummy gotta work and wasn't there with us but I had a great time spent with the rest of my family. =) I've missed celebrating this year's Mothers' Day but at least I gotta celebrate Fathers' Day. I know Daddy was super happy that I was there la! LOL!! =p Ok, I am thick-skinned. hahaha~
Even though Daddy is getting more and more naggy as he ages, but I still love him as much as ever! And I know he really cares and dote on me alot. Thinking of him makes me feel like crying again. He really is the best Dad ever! I know that he loves me as much as I love him and when I am away, he misses me more than words could describe. I am really feeling guilty that I can't be there to celebrate his birthdays for this year and the next two years with him. But I will never gonna forget to at least give him a call to wish him a 'Happy Birthday' every year! And also for Fathers' Day. =))
I've been spending almost every single day with Mummy and Sis when I was in SG. Well, not almost, I think it's EVERYDAY! Haha~ At least I see my Sis every single day~ Haha~ Even though Sis and I wasn't that close when I was young, but as I grow older, I guess I become more sensible and Sis can actually talks to me about her stuff and I can be her listener when she didn't want to talk about it with Mummy or whoever. =) I am glad that I can be her listener and I am really glad that she cares to share things with me. I know that Sis dotes on me alot too. =))
Actually we made Mummy angry because we bought an Agnes b bag each when we were really broke already. Haha~ Sis was so suay~ She gotta work with Mummy on that very day Mummy gotta know the price of the bag and got angry. LOL! She smsed me to ask me to go down to Causeway Point to "sai nai" with Mummy to make her 消气. =p So I woke up and went down to cwp to look for them and 'save' my Sis from the silent treatment Mummy was giving her. Well, I had my ways to make Mummy stop being angry and she started scolding me instead of continuing the silent treatment while Sis went to toilet. I know Mummy won't be angry with us for no reason. I know that it wasn't because of that bag. It's because Mummy NEVER like other people, even her sisters, to talk about her children. So well, as expected, it was someone who talked about us and well, in between, I misunderstood some people and hurt them and I am really sorry. =( But, everything is fine now. =) Anyways, after Mummy scolded me, I guessed she felt better and started talking to Sis and me and everything went back to normal. Hehe~ I know Mummy won't be angry for long. And Sis said to me that 只有我对妈咪有办法！LOL!! That's because I am the youngest and I know how to 撒娇 with her~~ =p
Oh ya~ we didn't get to bring Alyssa to the zoo and I didn't get to go spa and facial with Sis. So many places never get to go before I come back. But it's ok, I'll be going back next year January with Hubby!! Hehehe~
Attended Bro's Solemnisation at Bottle Tree Park before I headed home to rest and pack my luggage. =p Sis came over at about 11plus that night and we went to take a nap till about 2 plus in the morning and headed to the airport. Mummy was so strong la, she never take any naps. She just stay up till we were ready to go off. Bro was out with Sis-in-law, Yvette, and his friends for a drink so they didn't send me off but they did give me a call when I was on my way to the airport with Sis, Mummy and Cousin Tian. =) Von, Yiling and Mei gave me a sms each. =) And Leo and Girl Jie met us there at the airport. =)) Thank you so much for making the effort to come down and send me off! I know you love me! LOL!!
Oh ya! I was so forgetful that I actually left my laptop which is obviously seen on my bed!! Argh! I was panicked and well, Bro actually took a cab and came down to the airport and brought it for me. I am really really touched. =)) You're my best Bro and even though you can be really naggy and impatient some times (erm, ok, most of the time, LOL!!), but I still love you!! =))
So, here I am back to the States now and just got the time to actually blog. I will post more often and post more pictures more often too. As requested by the cousins~ =))
Loves~just being myself.
.Monday, June 21, 2010 ' 6/21/2010 11:24:00 PM
没有人能选择谁来当他的父母或孩子，所以今世的父母，儿女，兄弟姐妹都是老天决定的。我觉得我非常幸运的有一对很好很好的父母和非常疼我的哥哥和姐姐。我从来都没有觉得老天是不公平的。我很希望能和老公的父母和平相处。开开心心的在一起。可是应该很难吧。我想说的是，我真的很希望老公的父母能体谅我们，并了解我们的处境而不是到处宣扬。俗话说：家丑不得外扬。可是我真的不能理解为什么他们就是喜欢到处宣扬老公的缺点，然而优点却一字不提。这真的让老公和我很为难。尤其是我老公。看到他这么生气，我真的很心痛。我希望我能至少分担一点他的烦恼。至少让我知道他在烦些什么事，我也比较放心。我也非常讨厌父母拿别人的孩子来跟自己的比较，所以我能了解为什么老公会这么生气。可是不管再怎么气，他们还是他的父母。这是不能改变的事实。
我真的很希望他跟他父母的心结能早日解开。我知道很难，因为老公的脾气跟他的妈妈一样倔强。Haha~ 我们只能让时间来解决这件事了吧。我也只能默默地在一旁陪着老公了。
just being myself.
.Sunday, June 20, 2010 ' 6/20/2010 11:05:00 PM
Had a really fun night on Friday and I am so gonna go Powerhouse on Fridays now onwards. It's really way better than Saturday nights. Haha~ The music is totally my kinda music. Old school RNB plus new RNB and most importantly, REGGAETON!! Haha~ Pictures are up on my FB~ =) Only my friends get to see them though. Haha~~ =pCome to think of it, actually I really should come back with Baby. At least he will be here to accompany me. Well, coz everyone is busy and I totally understand that they do have to work and to accompany their bfs. =) No worries, I am not trying to say anything. Just that I find myself come back alone abit weird now. Coz no matter what I am still alone here and coussies gotta accompany bfs. Kinda feel that I should just do things alone and stuff like that.
Have been travelling to Causeway Point almost everyday coz Sis or Mummy will be there. I'll help out abit here and there at the push cart since at home also nothing to do. No one is home until Dad comes back from work.
Baby's parents are giving my Dad a hard time now. My Dad and I being in the middle of them is really bad. The situation is getting from bad to worse. I don't even know where to start. Hmm... Nevermind. I shan't say anything about the situation here.
It's Father's day today! And Mummy gotta work so we brought Daddy to eat for dinner. Supposingly we've decided to go to the Yishun Industrial Park there de Thai Food but it was packed with people and Dad didn't wanna wait so we went to Sembawang there de Bottle Tree to eat. The food is actually quite nice and not really that expensive coz normally we'll eat till $200+++ but we spent $149 for the food there. Didn't get to take picture of the food coz everyone's too hungry and ate the food once it was put on the table. Haha. =p
Anyways, I really wanna watch Karate Kid and The A Team like real soon!!!!!!! But nobody is free to watch or have already watched the movie. Probably gotta go watch the movies myself. I will be meeting Zhiyong on Wed for movie though. Haha~ His off day~ Should be watching one of the above mentioned. =) then at least I gotta watch one movie alone. =))
So bored.... Don't know what to do tomorrow~ =(
just being myself.
.Sunday, June 13, 2010 ' 6/13/2010 11:08:00 PM
I just wish to be by your side right now......
I've been away to KL, M'sia from 10th to 13th June. I've reached home at about 9pm or so. Unpacked all the dirty clothings for Mummy to wash. And laze on the sofa in the living room with Daddy and Mummy watching 星光传奇.
I was actually hoping that Baby will at least wake up early and send me a message or something to ask me if I am back in SG safely, but I have nothing from him. Not even a single sms when I was at KL to ask about my trip. Just a freaking phone call at 6am in the morning yesterday to ask if I want to buy a suntanning bench and a inflated pool or not.
But he actually asked Mandy about the trip in fb, not me. Sigh... I am not trying to say anything here but I felt left out. I am his wife. Why is he not concern about me at all? Baby, you don't love me anymore? Am I right?? Please tell me can?? Please? :'(
I did call him twice when I was over at KL but he didn't pick up. He said he missed the first one coz he was working and the second one he didn't see any miss call on his phone. Why can't he call me back after his work then? Why didn't he bother to just call me back? :'''''( Sigh~
我们发过誓言，说不论发生什么事，都会全心全意地爱着对方。我觉得我做到了，但是你呢？=(
我真的只是希望你能多关心我一点。至少让我感觉的到你的关心，我就很满足了。
我们说好的幸福呢？？？=(
just being myself.
.Tuesday, June 08, 2010 ' 6/08/2010 03:49:00 PM
We argued, we quarrelled, we got pissed with each other, but our love will grow stronger!!
I miss my baby so much. It has been almost 3 weeks since I'd left the States and come back to SG for visiting. I am really worried about what he has been eating and doing. He is someone real lazy when it comes to cooking. I just hope that he is eating well enough. And hope that he realise how much I've done for him. Hahaha~ I know that he knows that I've really done what I need to do for him. =p
I've realised, time has passed by so slowly without him by my side. And the more it makes me feel that he is the one for me. I know that the time we've spent to know each other is less than alot of other couples, but I am willing to spend the rest of my life knowing him more every single day.
I know our love will grow stronger each day. Our trust will grow alot stronger too.
26 more days for me to be back to Baby's side. =)
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Loving my hubby, Vincent Wan Yingsen.....
just being myself.
.Monday, May 31, 2010 ' 5/31/2010 11:16:00 AM
Been back to SG for a week. It's really short but I felt as if I am back for a very long time. LOL!! Been so busy and I went out even when I was having fever. haha. I feel that I am damn power la~ Hahaha. Coz I really just wanna be there with my cousins to celebrate Von's very belated birthday. Like what Von said, I really hope that our differences will bond us closer as we grow and not further. We've been cousins for life and we are so close with each other. I really love them alot. No matter where we are, no matter how we quarrelled, argued, etc, we'll still be there for each other when we need each other.Anyways, we went Somerset 313 for Marche. I must say the food there are quite expensive for SG. And I find that it's not really that nice. I know how to cook also. LOL!!!!!! =p But I really enjoyed the talkings and kidding around with the coussies. It has been a really long time since we did that.
Pictures are all up in FB. I'll just upload one group photos and that's all.
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Baby went clubbing with his guy friends ytd night and I am really unhappy about it. I know that I went clubbing too when I am back in sg but I went with Mandy and Mei Mei and their bfs. There's guys around and he should know that I was there to dance and they will protect me from other ppl. But he never go club with his guy friends before after we got together till now and furthermore, he is in the States and I am in Singapore. He SHOULD know that I will get worried and stuff. You should know how messy the clubs in States can get right. Why must his friends bring him to club and not bring US to club when I was still there? Why must it be this way? I really CANNOT understand. I couldn't talk to him properly so I chose not to talk to him. If not I think I will go crazy and shout at him again.
I'm already not feeling well, plus he told me he was going to club, before I can say anything, he had gone out already. I hadn't been sleeping well since then and I'd been looking at my watch every hour to check if he has reply my msg in msn or facebook or sms. I was so worried. But he wouldn't know because he was enjoying himself. Making myself looked like a fool talking to myself on his msn and fb msg. HA! I find myself looking ridiculously stupid. Is my worries worth it? I don't know. HE wouldn't know how I felt. What I'd been through, HE wouldn't know. HE wouldn't know ANYTHING!
All he knows is to apologize. Saying sorry is really easy. But you must say it sincerely. He said that he won't do it again. He said that sorry to make me worry.
I really dont know if he meant it or not. I don't know. Sitting here alone crying while blogging is really not helping. Everyone has got their own things to do and have to work. I can't expect anyone of them to be here for me right now. I am not that selfish.
I think I need to get outta the house. I will go Causeway Point to watch a movie. Booked the ticket already. Movie is starting at 3.10pm. I am just gonna go prepare and go find Mummy first. =) Ok! I need some alone time...
just being myself.
.Monday, May 17, 2010 ' 5/17/2010 12:36:00 PM
3 MORE DAYS!! And I'll be back in Singapore~~~ Well, to be exact, I'll reach SG on 21st May 2010, 12.50AM! Hehehe~~ I am so excited! I've packed my luggages, just a few more stuff to put in and I'm all set~!! Hee. I've bought lotsa gifts for my love ones... Hope that they'll like it. Hehe~~ =)
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just being myself.
.Wednesday, May 12, 2010 ' 5/12/2010 04:24:00 PM
I can't and don't want to believe what I've just saw.........
Can anyone please tell me what I should do??
I'm so lost right now......
With no one beside me, no one to talk to.......
Sigh...
just being myself.
.Thursday, April 29, 2010 ' 4/29/2010 02:48:00 PM
I really miss the days that I earned my own money and spend my own money. Like that I don't have to 看他的脸色来买我要的东西. I dont have to be so 辛苦. Have to ask him. Argh!! Hate this feeling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I've cooked char siew mee today and cooked too much again. Luckily Angelia wanna eat, if not sure throw away de. So, I brought the food over to her house by my bicycle~ Then we chatted for awhile. And I went back home at about 9pm. The sky is still not dark yet. It's like 7pm in SG. Haha.
I came back home and skyped with Mummy and Alyssa for about 40min and it's time for Alyssa to sleep. Mummy taught me how to make 炸虾球. Gonna try it maybe on Friday. Haha. After that I went to take a bathe and continue to zhng my keychain watch. Going to finish it soon. Hehe. Will continue the rest tomorrow.
I am going to bed soon. Such a boring day.
just being myself.
.Wednesday, April 28, 2010 ' 4/28/2010 02:24:00 PM
I'll be back in SG in 31 days! A month's time. How I wish to go back now!!! I miss my family, cousins and relatives so so much. Luckily there's Skype, if not I'll die here mann! Haha..
I've only bought Mei Mei's present. (Not gonna tell you what is the present. =p) The rest I'll buy next month. I will be going Park City's Tanger Outlet next month to get all the presents. Hehe.
I think I am gonna have sun burnt due cutting the weeds on the grass in front of my house last Sunday. I didn't notice it until yesterday Baby saw my back. It's reddish and tanned. LOL!! He said that we no need to go indoor tanning already. He will go make a bench or something like that and put at our backyard. Then I can tan there instead. Free tanning. LOL!! And I think during summer, I need to just lie there for 5 minutes and I'll be super tanned already. It's gonna be real hot in Summer. 40++ degrees celsius in Summer. My God!! I am so gonna stay at home or go to somewhere with air-conditioned during weekends. Haha. And Baby said that it'll be the hotest time of Summer when I come back to Mountain Home. Damn~~~
I think I need to get a mini portable fan before I come back. LOL!! Just in case~ =p
I've been lazy to blog. =p And Eka complained on FB~ Hahaha~ I am blogging now alright~! =p
Anyways, I've been to Salt Lake City & Park City on 17th and 18th April 2010 with 5 other couples. Stayed there for a night. Baby said that we were staying at a Suite for 2 couples. I thought the 'Suite' will be glamorous, BUT! I was so so so wrong. Haha. It's totally like an apartment. Not even close to a Suite. LOL! Well, I forgot to take pictures of the suite. =p
Took lotsa pictures and I've loaded them in my fb already. So go and take a look there ba. I am lazy to load here. Too many pics already. hehe. But I will load one that I took with my new dress from Wetseal and new bag from Coach~ Heehee~
I've only bought Mei Mei's present. (Not gonna tell you what is the present. =p) The rest I'll buy next month. I will be going Park City's Tanger Outlet next month to get all the presents. Hehe.
I think I am gonna have sun burnt due cutting the weeds on the grass in front of my house last Sunday. I didn't notice it until yesterday Baby saw my back. It's reddish and tanned. LOL!! He said that we no need to go indoor tanning already. He will go make a bench or something like that and put at our backyard. Then I can tan there instead. Free tanning. LOL!! And I think during summer, I need to just lie there for 5 minutes and I'll be super tanned already. It's gonna be real hot in Summer. 40++ degrees celsius in Summer. My God!! I am so gonna stay at home or go to somewhere with air-conditioned during weekends. Haha. And Baby said that it'll be the hotest time of Summer when I come back to Mountain Home. Damn~~~
I think I need to get a mini portable fan before I come back. LOL!! Just in case~ =p
I've been lazy to blog. =p And Eka complained on FB~ Hahaha~ I am blogging now alright~! =p
Anyways, I've been to Salt Lake City & Park City on 17th and 18th April 2010 with 5 other couples. Stayed there for a night. Baby said that we were staying at a Suite for 2 couples. I thought the 'Suite' will be glamorous, BUT! I was so so so wrong. Haha. It's totally like an apartment. Not even close to a Suite. LOL! Well, I forgot to take pictures of the suite. =p
Took lotsa pictures and I've loaded them in my fb already. So go and take a look there ba. I am lazy to load here. Too many pics already. hehe. But I will load one that I took with my new dress from Wetseal and new bag from Coach~ Heehee~
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Oh! I bought a new phone. HTC HD2. It's 199.99usd and buy one get one free! So Baby also got one. Haha. We're using the same phone now. We need to get a line instead of using prepaid card that's why we bought the phone. hee. It's bigger than iPhone but same weight as iPhone. But cannot video call~~ =( Nvm la~ =) Can surf net and stuff. Hehe.
Baby is working night shift this week so I am home alone now. Watched finish my dramas already. Waiting for the next episodes for a few dramas to be out. =)
Nothing much is going on here. Oh, about last Sunday, I've video down what Baby was doing. LOL!! Loaded it in fb too~ heehee.. =p
just being myself.
.Wednesday, April 14, 2010 ' 4/14/2010 03:50:00 PM
跟我姐商量的结论：我会使着在努力找回刚开始那段快乐的日子。可是，单方面的努力。。。我不知道会有什么作用。我会尽我所能地不对他发脾气。尽我作为伴侣的本分。就算他还是没有改变，但是我知道我已经尽力了。如果到了最后我们还是不能够好好相处，我决定回去了就不再回来。
或许这样对我们来说会比较好吧。
没有人能预知未来，所以我也只好顺其自然了。
哭也哭过了，闹也闹够了。可是事情还是没有任何变化。我累了。
或许，真像妈咪跟姐说的一样。我在这里，太孤单寂寞了，所以整天想东想西的。可是，如果他真的关心我，在乎我的话，我想我们也不会变成现在这样。
just being myself.
.Friday, April 09, 2010 ' 4/09/2010 10:40:00 AM
我们已经回不去像从前那般快乐的日子了。
just being myself.
.Tuesday, April 06, 2010 ' 4/06/2010 07:32:00 AM
Heart Broken……It is something that can never be fixed no matter how much you wished to fix it. It is a wound that can never be cured. It is something that no matter how hard you want to stop thinking about it, you’ll still feel the pain. I, had my heart broken, by many other guys that came along the way before I met him. It still hurts sometimes, but I will try not to think of it. It’s better to look ahead than to turn back and looked at what had happened in your life. Coz what’s done cannot be undone.
I thought that I’ve met the most incredible guy in the world and he will never hurt me like others did, but I guess I was wrong. In surface, it seems that he loves me, pampers me like a child, gives me all that I’ve ever wanted, cares for me, understands me like no one else’s did. But the truth is, there are things that are hidden underneath the surface that no one else can see, except for me.
Things that had broke my heart deeply but I couldn’t tell anyone about it. Things that are meant to kept as secret. Things that is so unbearable to know. Things that he felt that is just another of me throwing tantrum and being paranoid.
As a wife, I felt useless beside him. I questioned myself some times, “Why am I here with him when what I said and what he’d promised me is nothing to him? Why aren’t we the same anymore? Is it because he doesn’t love me anymore or am I the one to blame? How come we become so far apart inside when we are just beside each other? Why? Why? Why?”
We had made our vows to each other. We had happy moments together. But why do I feel so empty and broken? I am no longer happy. All I can do now is to appear to be happy. Acting as if there’s nothing wrong with us. Acting normal. But deep down inside, I am not happy at all. I don’t want to be like that. Can anyone tell me what to do? Coz I am really lost.
Promises that he’d made, things that we had talked about, they just don’t matter anymore.
I know that we can’t change ourselves overnight, but I’d really like to see slight changes. Hoping for things to be better when I’ve already done what I can to make it better, but it takes 2 hands to clap.
I am not asking for anything else. I just wish that we can really make things work between us.
Hoping that there’s still ‘love’ between us. And it’s not just saying it.
just being myself.
.Thursday, April 01, 2010 ' 4/01/2010 08:09:00 AM
It's been awhile huh.. Haha... Well, alot of things happened within the period that I left my blog untouch. I'm not gonna update all coz it only involves with my close ones and they know what is going on in my life without the need to actually read my blog. But I think they'll need to read it now coz I am not in Singapore. Actually since 5th January 2010, I've left home and came all the way here, which is the States, with my hubby. Due to his work, we'll be here till maybe May or Nov 2013. Pretty long huh?! =) It's really time for me to grow up since I'm married last year October. To be exact, I'd held my Solemnisation ceremony only. We'll be having the customary wedding after he's done with his training here and go back home. =)
Hmm.. This 3 months had been pretty tough for me coz this is the first I leave home without my parents, siblings, my cousins, etc, etc. I really miss them a lot. I actually miss Mummy’s & Daddy’s nagging. Haha!!
I miss hanging out with my coussies, I miss the partying with Girl Jie, I miss the times when Girl Jie and I used to wake up on Sunday afternoon after clubbing the night before for our breakfast at Northpoint. The gossipping we had, the quarrels and arguments we had, the fun times we had. We laughed, we cried, we argued, we quarrelled, etc, but we never forget that no matter how much we ‘fight’, we still love each other the most. She’s always my best friend, the one who knows me best. And I love her so much!!
Oh mann, I feel like crying again. =( I really need to grow up. Haha!
Leaving Singapore, leaving my family, is a huge decision that I had made for my life. But marrying him, is the right choice I’ve made and I know he will loves me as long as we are together. At least I will. Even though we do have our arguments and disagreements with some habits and stuff, but which couple don’t, right? I love him, so I will try to compromise with him and I hope he compromises with mine too. I want this marriage to work out well, so I really need to be more mature. =) Well, I will change as time passes by. 顺其自然吧！
As for where I am living now, is a small town called Mountain Home in the state of Idaho. It’s famous for potatoes!! No kidding! LOL!! There’s really nothing much here. During weekends, we’ll go to Boise, the capital of Idaho, for some groceries, movies and shopping~! It’s an hour car drive from Mountain Home to Boise. It’s really the nearest town that have everything that we need to get. There’s China Market and Asia Market for us to buy oriental stuff. =) There’s Victoria’s Secret, Forever 21, Wetseal, American Eagle, Aerostaples, Abercrombie & Fitch, Hollister, Mac, Sephora, Old Navy, etc, etc. I’ve been shopping like crazy~~ LOL!! I’ve been trying to buy Havaianas flip flops online but the website seems to have a problem when I am checking out. Damn~~!!
Anyways, coussies~! If there’s anything you wanna get from the above mentioned shops, please let me know 2 weeks before 30th May 2010, k? Coz most probably I will be taking the plane back to Singapore on that day. =) *Only for cousins!! This is the privileges of being my cousins!! LOL!*
I am getting used to the weather and all here. It’s supposed to be spring now, but sometimes, it’s still very cold. Especially when the wind blows~~ OMG! You’ll be like shivering. Haha. I am gonna end here first. Will be updating again. I might be perming my hair tomorrow~!!!! Wooohooooo~~ =) Tata~
Hmm.. This 3 months had been pretty tough for me coz this is the first I leave home without my parents, siblings, my cousins, etc, etc. I really miss them a lot. I actually miss Mummy’s & Daddy’s nagging. Haha!!
I miss hanging out with my coussies, I miss the partying with Girl Jie, I miss the times when Girl Jie and I used to wake up on Sunday afternoon after clubbing the night before for our breakfast at Northpoint. The gossipping we had, the quarrels and arguments we had, the fun times we had. We laughed, we cried, we argued, we quarrelled, etc, but we never forget that no matter how much we ‘fight’, we still love each other the most. She’s always my best friend, the one who knows me best. And I love her so much!!
Oh mann, I feel like crying again. =( I really need to grow up. Haha!
Leaving Singapore, leaving my family, is a huge decision that I had made for my life. But marrying him, is the right choice I’ve made and I know he will loves me as long as we are together. At least I will. Even though we do have our arguments and disagreements with some habits and stuff, but which couple don’t, right? I love him, so I will try to compromise with him and I hope he compromises with mine too. I want this marriage to work out well, so I really need to be more mature. =) Well, I will change as time passes by. 顺其自然吧！
As for where I am living now, is a small town called Mountain Home in the state of Idaho. It’s famous for potatoes!! No kidding! LOL!! There’s really nothing much here. During weekends, we’ll go to Boise, the capital of Idaho, for some groceries, movies and shopping~! It’s an hour car drive from Mountain Home to Boise. It’s really the nearest town that have everything that we need to get. There’s China Market and Asia Market for us to buy oriental stuff. =) There’s Victoria’s Secret, Forever 21, Wetseal, American Eagle, Aerostaples, Abercrombie & Fitch, Hollister, Mac, Sephora, Old Navy, etc, etc. I’ve been shopping like crazy~~ LOL!! I’ve been trying to buy Havaianas flip flops online but the website seems to have a problem when I am checking out. Damn~~!!
Anyways, coussies~! If there’s anything you wanna get from the above mentioned shops, please let me know 2 weeks before 30th May 2010, k? Coz most probably I will be taking the plane back to Singapore on that day. =) *Only for cousins!! This is the privileges of being my cousins!! LOL!*
I am getting used to the weather and all here. It’s supposed to be spring now, but sometimes, it’s still very cold. Especially when the wind blows~~ OMG! You’ll be like shivering. Haha. I am gonna end here first. Will be updating again. I might be perming my hair tomorrow~!!!! Wooohooooo~~ =) Tata~
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Taken on 19 March 2010, 6.39pm
just being myself.
.Sunday, August 16, 2009 ' 8/16/2009 01:45:00 AM
Mummy said you must always see the negative sides of you before criticising or complaining about others. I've thought it through.... I guess I am still the impatient, wilful spoilt brat or worsen. Hmm... Just a thought after realising that what you've given me are empty promises and the change from you. The not calling me "baby" but "eh", the raising your voice at me, the not sending me up to my doorstep without the need for me to tell you so at late hours after we went out, etc. I guess I expected too much again. I told myself multiple times not to expect so much from one self but yet I did. Slight disappointment from you but I guess I can get over it.
The things that you shouldn't do, shouldn't say but should help me through and protect me. I need a mature man to do so. Not a 'boy'friend. I apologize if I've expected too much again.
Slight disappointment that I can't go on a short trip out of town for my 21st Birthday. I guess 21st isn't a huge thing afterall. Anyway, I might not be able to take leave coz it may not be approved. There's something I need to do at work.
My mind is kinda blank now, I don't know whatelse to type. It's like I suddenly realised that my honeymoon period had already past and I am kinda emo because of that. Things are suddenly taken for granted. Sigh...
just being myself.
.Saturday, August 01, 2009 ' 8/01/2009 11:15:00 PM
How I wish I am lying on the beach relaxing somewhere out of Singapore right now. With the nice breeze and sunny weather. Get a nice tan, have a nice western breakfast buffet at the hotel's restaurant. Enjoying my day, spending time doing somethings I like. Going to spa in the noon, for a swim before that, etc etc.. It's been awhile since my last trip to Genting. A long weekend is coming up soon.. Really wish to spend my time outta here. Have a short trip to neighbouring country. It'd be great.
I had spent two weekends at home. I don't wanna spend another weekend home anymore. It's just a waste of time. It's my rest day and I'm just staying home doing nothing wasting it away. This isn't the life that I want. Spending future money, not having any savings cos I'm earning too little to even start with my savings, staying home just to kill time, boring........
I guess I am whining again. Always complaining that you're not good enough. In fact, I'm the one who's not good enough. I hope to have a better life with you, but I guess I'm expecting too much again...
I am determined to slim down, so don't ask me for supper or fastfoods. =p I am quitting them. For good. =)
just being myself.
.Sunday, July 26, 2009 ' 7/26/2009 02:00:00 AM
I came to realise that I've been way too lazy to blog. =p Anyway, alot of things happened within the period when I got too lazy to blog. My birthday is just a month away~~ I'll be holding my 21st birthday celebration at Costa Sand Resort @ Pasir Ris on 22nd August 2009. The actual day is on 27 August 2009 but I am having an early celebration cos 27th is a weekday. I've invited some closer friends in my facebook so I hope that they'll be there. =) I'll be on leave on 27th and 28th August coz it's my birthday! and I want a rest. =p No plans on my off day yet coz my bf doesn't seem to have any plans on that day actually. No hint no nothing from him so I am assuming there's nothing much ba.
P.S. I really hope that my cousins and friends won't be sabo'ing me on that day (22-08-2009) cos I have invited my colleagues too. I dont want to look unglam lo~ I admit, 我玩不起。 After the party, I don't mind but not when everyone is around. =p
I want to slim down before my birthday so I am quitting fast food. Okay~ Not exactly quitting but I'll eat fast food only once a month! I saw this slimming thingy in Women's Weekly, iSlim from Japan. Seems good. Went forum to search for it and it actually helps. So I am gonna try this out. Going to buy when I get my pay or ask Baby to buy for me first. Hahaha~ It's selling at Watsons. Baby, I know you read my blog so pls~~ buy it for me k? Hahah~ In case you're afraid that there's side effects, below are pictures taken from the magazine. =)
I hope it'll work on me too~~ =)
Nite~!
just being myself.
.Sunday, June 28, 2009 ' 6/28/2009 03:10:00 AM
Insecurity fills me. I wish I can make myself to believe in your words but it don't sound convincing at all. I hope that time will make me convinced by your words. Please don't make me feel insecure. I hate it. It's only 2 months, baby. I don't wish to say this but if I am feeling this way, I don't think we'll last long. It's only 2 months, somehow or rather you showed the true colours out. You used to be so nice, never complain about anything. But now you're getting impatient, showing your true self who you weren't like that for the 3 months of wooing me.Why guys are all the same? That's the reason why I didn't want to have a boyfriend anymore. At least at that period of time. I don't wish to go thru all the heart pains that I've been thru way too many times.
2 months baby! Our honeymoon period shouldn't be this short! But why you're making feel as if we're together for a few years and kinda used to each other already? We're supposed to be a 'newly loving couple'. I shouldn't feel this way at all. Argh!
I'm so paranoid now. Sigh!
Time will tell... Time will tell........
just being myself.
.Thursday, June 18, 2009 ' 6/18/2009 09:46:00 PM
2 months of together-ness makes me realised alot of things.. Even though it's just a short period of time but we've know each other for about half a year. I love my baby. And I really hope that things won't change. I hope that he can still be like before. Surprise which he gave only once when we just got together. Roses that he gave only once on V'day. No people say that only special occasions will get surprises. Though I don't get even if it's special occasion. =x
I love surprises and roses. Who doesn't?
Baby left for Thailand on 6th, came back on 14th. I went Genting with family on 12th, came back on 14th. Baby came to fetch me and my family home. I really appreciate that alot coz I know he should be very tired already. Thank you Baby! Muacks!
Genting was fun but tiring~~ Too rushy. But at least I get to spend some time with my family. =)
I really hope that our relationship won't turn sour or tasteless when it's only two months old. I know that I had been complaining and whining all these while, but I just hope that he'll know how/what I feel. I don't know why but I have to say things specifically before he can understand what I am trying to say. I need to be very straight forward if not he won't know I like something or I want something. I feel so weird saying all these things out coz normally ppl will know what I want/like when I am 'hinting'. But he just don't get it.
I am trying very hard to control my temper even when I am actually having PMS now.
I don't mind walking abit, but he used to park somewhere nearest to where we are going. Minding little things that I see no diff on. Going out with his friends more than going out with me.
I can't remember the last time we had a proper date without his friends. A nice dinner, chill together, cuddling, drinking starbucks, etc. I know his previous relationship makes him realised that friends are equally important. But I don't want to be hanging out with his friends all the time. I need time alone with him too. I don't want to go out together and suddenly, he called his friends or his friends called him to go somewhere and we'll just join in or they just join us like that. I didn't say or mention anything coz I find that it's alright once or twice. But I should mention first before it happens again.
I hope that he'll get what I mean. I love him, not his friends.
我知道我应该爱屋及乌，可是你不能得寸进尺。我不希望自己变成一个自私的人。可是，爱情原本就是自私的。我希望你能明白我想让你了解我的想法而不是当成我又再发牢骚了。
我希望我能成为一个好女友，所以不要让我一直发脾气。=p
just being myself.
.Sunday, June 07, 2009 ' 6/07/2009 10:01:00 PM
I feel that he'll need me to say one thing to him fucking clearly before he can do that thing. Why he never tries to figure out what I really want. Don't expect too much from you will make me feel better. But I am really not asking alot... A call or a msg is simply too difficult for him to do. It won't be difficult for me so I dont see how hard can it be. Perhaps he forgot about the time. I don't know. What the fuck, aitt! I don't wanna think anymore.I still have to go to work tmr morning and attend my first lesson tmr evening. It'll be a tiring day for me.
Going to bed now.. night all..
just being myself.
.Tuesday, May 26, 2009 ' 5/26/2009 08:48:00 PM
Not exactly a good day at work. Busy as usual, but I did alot of mistakes. Careless mistakes that I should have checked through thoroughly before passing to my RO(Zenn) to check and for my manager (who I don't wish to mention her name coz she makes me sick) to sign. And manager as usual keep on 找碴 for nothing. Damn irritating. Things that I've been doing since I joined, she suddenly say I am not consistent. WTF~~ Argh! She's like having PMS 365days a year. Her mood swing is freaking serious and all of us (my section's colleagues) cannot stand her.I really don't know why I am making mistakes so often. I really need to buck up and be more careful in my work! Sigh~ I just hope that tomorrow won't be another 'mistakes' day for me. I need to stay FOCUS at work!! Focus Corin!!
Supposingly I am not joining my parents and relatives to Genting on 12 June 2009 - 14 June 2009 coz I have class in the evening but Mum called this morning? or afternoon, to say that Von can't take leave so she gotta take the night coach and Ting is joining too. So she asked if I still wanna go. Of course I want to go! I'll be darn bored if I am not going coz Baby will be at Thailand enjoying! =( So! I will be going Genting on 12 June 2009 night after my class which I gotta go off half way coz I will be boarding the coach outside Sun Plaza at 9.30pm. I will need to rush back. Mum will bring my stuff over first so that I no need to bring. Haha. Will be sharing room with Von and Ting and we'll be having so much fun! =)
Runny nose is recovering all thanks to Zenn's miracle runny nose medicine. LOL!! But still feeling quite 辛苦. I have been sleeping early and will be sleeping early tonight too.
I find that I have no one to talk to. Not even Baby. Coz he don't have the time to even sit down and have a talk with me. That's why I am blogging. I know he just change his workplace and gotta wakes up earlier than usual now, so he's tired and wants to go home to rest early. Can't do anything to change it. I'll just have to get used to taking bus home soon as I am already used to him fetching me home after work. I told myself that I can't rely on my bf so much for so so many times already, but I always ended up relying on him too much. Again and again. Sigh... When will I ever change?
just being myself.
.Sunday, May 24, 2009 ' 5/24/2009 12:12:00 AM
What a day~ Supposingly a great weekend but ended not that great afterall. I seriously don't mind to go out with Baby and his friends, they are nice people, but I just thought that he might wanna tell me first before deciding anything. At least I won't be following blindly and turned out to spoil my day instead of enjoying myself.I don't remember when is the last time I truly enjoyed myself with Baby coz he'll somehow makes me angry with some thing. Perhaps that's because my expectation for him is higher than others. That's why I got back such disappointments. I should know best that I shouldn't expect too much from one self coz I won't get back what I've expected. I've been through so much already, how come I am making the same mistake I've made in the past. Sigh..
Went prawning just now which is super boring. Wasted 3 hours there. And he didn't tell me that we were going prawning. Though it's my first time prawning but I don't have the patience to do this kinda thing. Told Baby that pls don't bring me along the next time he is going. I'll be damn bored and sleepy and pissed after that. And we didn't eat dinner till 10plus. Damn~
A hungry woman, is an angry woman. At 9plus, I told him that I am super hungry and giddy. He said that awhile more then go off. I thought that he'll leave straight away instead of 'later'. It totally made me pissed off and I just went back to sit and stare blankly and continued to let my stomach growling and in the end, I had gastric pain. We went off only after he saw my face turned black and his friends noticed. I wondered why he must wait till I am pissed then we can leave the place. Why can't he react immediately when I told him that I am not feeling that well already? Sigh.. And what's the point of apologising only after you did something wrong? Neglecting my words.. I seriously hope that he won't be like that again.
There's 7 days a week and both of us gotta work on weekdays.
Even though he'll come and fetch me home after work everyday but he won't be able to do so after this week. That means we'll only get to see each other on weekends. 2 weeks later he'll be going Thailand for 9 days, 6 June 2009 to 14 June 2009. And my class will be starting on 8 June 2009. That means we won't be able to see each other that often anymore. I thought that this weekend and next weekend he'll be accompanying me only but well, he didn't think so much I guess.
It takes 2 hands to clap. I hope that he'll know what to do next if he really wanna spend time with me.
just being myself.
.Wednesday, May 20, 2009 ' 5/20/2009 10:12:00 PM
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Favourite pic of all! Don't we look alike? Haha~
Von's 21st birthday's pictures is up in my FB. =)
Fell sick after that. Argh! Migrain, vomited, giddyness. What's more to come? I am really sick of falling sick so easily. I had been sleeping early but why is my body still so weak? Argh! I thought of forcing myself to at least finish work today and come home and rest early but I couldn't. I felt that my head is gonna like crack into pieces. Vomited twice this morning and that's why I came back home to rest. I feel so guilty for taking MC again even though I am really unwell.
1 month had passed for Baby and I. I feel that everything is going too fast for us. We didn't celebrate or buy each other presents. Even though I thought he will do so. He said that he is saving up to get something I really like/want for my birthday. But to me, what matters most is the Present. My birthday is like 3months away. So long more... I prefer getting a present now than getting what I really like/want later. But he don't get it. And I find it no point saying so much coz he won't get it. Sometimes I just feel that I can't communicate with him well. No point hinting him anything coz he JUST won't get it. Gotta say something straight to the point then he'll know what I am trying to say. Argh! It kinda frustrates me. But well, he is who I chose to be with and I love him. We'll see how things go.
Goodnight everyone.
P.S: If you wanna tag me, email me instead. =) corin_goh@yahoo.com.sg
just being myself.
.Thursday, May 07, 2009 ' 5/07/2009 10:53:00 PM
I don't like the 'me' at this time of the month coz I'll be very easily agitated and feel irritated by every little things. Very easily tired and feeling lethargic. I don't like PMS. It's making me feel so bloated and stuff. My temper will be from bad to worse. I'll tend to think alot. Sigh. Poor baby gotta tolerate all these shit from me. I guess one day, he'll be like every other guy, couldn't tolerate my nonsense and shit and leave me. Well, if he is really that kinda guy, I don't mind losing. All these shit have become a part of me, a part of my life. If you can't tolerate them, so be it. I really wish that you'll be like before. But guys, they are just so predictable. When wooing you, they'll give you whatever you want, but when they got you, it's a totally different thing. See, I'm starting to think alot again. Sigh~
Night~
just being myself.
.Monday, May 04, 2009 ' 5/04/2009 09:47:00 PM
2 kukus who didn't go to Singapore Flyer before finally went there on last Friday. LOL!! Anyway, there's a Beer festival going on and we had free beer each and 2 rounds instead of once for the Flyer. I don't drink beer but well, the price for the tickets are the same as the Basic flight so we decided to take the Beer flight thingy. Actually I didn't want the second round coz it's kinda boring and I was very tired already but Baby insisted. Sigh. To my surprise, the beer is actually nice. Tasted like some gasy drinks with a lil' alcohol. Haha. It's called The Flying Dog, from USA. =)
Before that we went Vivo walk walk and Baby bought me a dress from F21. Hehe~ Supposed to change the size of the ring but there's some issues and had to wait till the next day. Anyway, it's the right size now. =) Went The White Dog for dinner but I had only the Triple Mushrooms soup (which made me feel freaking thirsty after that) and Strawberry Lemonade which is freaking nice~ Hehe~
Taken lotsa photos again~ HAHAHA~~ =p
Will upload the photos tomorrow~ I wanna sleep already. Tomorrow going shopping~~ with Cousin Ting. Hehehe~ =)
Night everyone~
just being myself.
.Saturday, May 02, 2009 ' 5/02/2009 02:18:00 PM
About 3 months or so of dating, multiple times of asking the same question, at last you have me! LOL!!!! I am so thick-skinned. =p
Even though we've dated others at the same time too, but still, we ended up with each other. Seriously, I don't know what's so good about me. Haha. I am sucha spoilt brat but yet you can tolerate all my nonsense. You've accepted me for who I am and not what I am/have. I am really glad that you're there for me when I needed someone badly. I hope that I can make a difference to your life too coz you made mine.
All I want to say is, I love you Vincent Wan Ying Sen. =)
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just being myself.
.Wednesday, April 29, 2009 ' 4/29/2009 10:06:00 PM
2 days MC.... Slacking.... I've been throwing tantrum easily and I can't seem to control it. Sigh...... just being myself.
.Monday, April 27, 2009 ' 4/27/2009 11:48:00 PM
Sudden feel of tiredness within me is unbearable. My eye is hurting again and I am starting to get agitated freaking easily and I got so many things that I want to do but can't afford to coz lack of ka-ching and time! I didn't manage to go to Momo's place to stay over with my cousins and I am quite pissed of with myself. I don't know why I am complaining when I know everyone else needs to work and is tired after work too. I'm just making a nuisance out of myself. I am tired and I just feel like staying home to rest after work everyday and trap myself in my own world again. Don't wish to bother anyone or be bothered by anyone. I feel very xinku. But I don't know what is it that's making me feel this way. Maybe it's my eye that makes me feel so awful, maybe is the stomach upset that caused it, or maybe it's because I am freaking broke and no one can actually 'support' me. I don't know. Sigh..
I don't feel like talking that's why I am blogging. That's the only way for me to 倾诉自己的心情.
I need to re-org my emotions.
just being myself.
.Saturday, April 25, 2009 ' 4/25/2009 10:28:00 AM
There's so many things that had happened for the past one month that I don't know where I should start. People close to me should know what is going on. Happy things, sad occasion..... That I don't wanna think of. I still can't accept the fact that someone so close to me is gone. It's just not acceptable. Somehow, I still think that he's alive. In my heart, always, he is someone who I respect and love as much as my parents. He's the second father of mine. Never fail to suan me. LOL.. Even though sometimes it's annoying but deep down, I know he still meant well. Regretful of not spending more time with him, not going to his house for dinner. Sigh. But it all can't be undone. So.. I moved on, keeping him deep in my heart, always. And cherish alot more the people closest to me.
Guys are just too typical. I don't remember if I have mention this sentence, but it's really true. When he is wooing you, he'll try all means to make you happy, you'll think how thoughtful can someone be, how nice he can treat you, how wonderful he is. But! When he got you as his girlfriend, everything changes. He'll start to complain every little things. It used to be "I'll wait for you, you slowly do your things. It's ok." Then it became, "What took you so long to come down?" It used to be, I can wear whatever I want. Then it became, "Why are you wearing so little?"
See the diff?? Haha. Guys~~ Way too typical.
I used to want my guy to be nice to me only, never think so much about the future. But now, I want a future. I don't wish to be changing bf like changing clothes anymore. It's not gonna do anything good to me.
To my lovely cousins, me having a bf will make them think, "Again? How long will this one last?" Haha. I am serious with every relationship, but perhaps I am not thoughtful enough before stepping into one. That's why I ended with alot.
I'm just typing how I feel right now. Nothing much. Early morning abit emo~ LOL!!
P.S: Perhaps he'll make a difference. But it'll need time to prove........... So, if you can, prove me wrong about the statements I've made above.
just being myself.
.Sunday, March 29, 2009 ' 3/29/2009 09:51:00 PM
Company dinner on Friday 27-03-2009 was good. Great time hanging out with my colleagues. It's actually a department dinner instead of a company dinner la. Haha. Most of the colleagues in the HR department were there. Cheers' HR staff were there too. =) Though I don't know them. Hahaha.. Anyway, we took lotsa photos together using Zenn's and Jaslyn's digi cam. I managed to snap some shots with my hp's cam though. =) 
Partying on Saturday (28-03-2009) at St James Powerhouse (as usual). =p It's really fun but just too crowded. Argh! No place to dance. the people there were like peak hour of CTE. LOL!! More photos coming up when I get from Bryan and Mandy. =)
Think I'm falling sick again... Been sneezing~ Argh!!
Anyway, I'm really tired.. Will blog more tomorrow if I have the time~ =p
Goodnight~
just being myself.
.Tuesday, March 24, 2009 ' 3/24/2009 08:07:00 PM
I feel...... restless. Even if there's no time for me to feel so. Been busy with mostly work and stuff. I used to get sick of something after awhile, for eg. my job. Haha. I've been here for almost 3 months and everything is great. Most of the people there are really nice, especially my team. =D (As most of you know, in each company, department or section, there'll be one or two nasty ones. My department is the same.) Haha.Work is getting busier each day and it's like never ending workload. Perhaps after this 2-3 months, things will be better? I don't know. Though there's no internet access, but I won't feel bored coz I don't have the time to feel bored. Haha.
I seriously can't tolerate people shouting at me with tiny matter. But recently, someone just did it. I don't know why must he do that all the time. It's not the first time already. I'm damn irritated by him but he is still older than me, still someone who I 'need' to respect. Argh! Whatever. He's just a nuisance.
This weekend will be packed. =)
Friday: Company dinner at Swissotel, after that meeting Alvin.
Saturday: Partying at Powerhouse with the girls. Gong Wen is back from China! Welcome back girl! =D She'll be the main lead that night. Haha.
Sunday: Sleeping dead at home. =p
It's too early to say anything or to tell. I hope that I'm not making the wrong choice. We'll see how things go aitt...
Goodnight everyone... Sleeping early tonight..
just being myself.
.Sunday, March 15, 2009 ' 3/15/2009 02:09:00 PM
No updates for a long time. I'm just too lazy... Haha. I'll just update the photos taken. That's all..Last night was the longest hours I've sleep for the past 3 weeks. Feeling tired and lethargic all this while but last night had a really a good sleep. =)
just being myself.
